Feeling low - Steps 4-6 seem impossible
Feeling low - Steps 4-6 seem impossible
I haven't contacted him anymore, so that's not the problem. The problem is, I have some sort of paranoia now in having anyone in my life because I don't trust anyone, and I've been feeling really depressed lately.
The moment I see any signs or threats of rejection from anyone, I cut them off and hide myself from everyone because I can't take anymore abuse.
For instance, in dealing with "music business" folk. I have one person that I consider trustworthy to a certain degree that I talk to from time to time about "industry" stuff and he and I got on the topic about how harsh people are in the industry. He told me "never take your heart into the business, NEVER", and that's hard for me to do.
If your heart is in music and art, how are you not going to take your heart into it, when you have such a passion for it?
I mean I know what he means, but I'm just not a thick skin person, so lately when dealing with people in the industry, I can't take the cold shoulder shit that I get because I feel like everyone in the industry is a Narc, so I don't have any motivation or courage to even pursue my dreams.
Its like you can't be human in that industry and the only time people care about "real life" or any human experience is when you have a famous face.
I'm just having a hard time finding a place of peace right now because every where I go I feel like there's this Narc around the corner just waiting for my bleeding wound to come walking by.
Could this be PTSD?
There is!
yes!
could be ptsd
Bloody musicians
Dudette this made me laugh. I
Being Narced does put you
kizzy one last thought
you're right
kizzy you got
Kizzy, the ONLY person you
I agree sparrow
I know what you mean, the
great advice!
I hear ya! So many people
Kizzy
Kizzy/ the music buissness...geeze
I'm not a singer