feeling horrible need support badly tonight

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#1 Mar 29 - 3PM
fierflie
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feeling horrible need support badly tonight

So, I went on a date with this guy. he was so totally my type (which obviously is assholes). He's british and has a PHD in astronomy. He's an artic scientist. He's exciting, smart, handsome, rich, well travelled, well mannered, ect...
His communication was really really sporatic from day 1. He would email me weeks after the initial email. We are told to avoid these guys that come on strong, so I tried to tell myself this was normal. After our first date, he promptly texted me and asked me out again. Even thought he waited like three days between texts, I thought all was OK.
After a while i started to wonder what was going on, so I sent him this email :
Hello Super Hottie London Boy.
I know you are super busy with your friends visiting and saving the arctic and all, but I just wanted to thank you again for dinner it was so nice and an absolute pleasure. You are truly a fascinating, brilliant and incredibly sexy guy.
So, I'm totally totally not interested in anything serious or necessarily commital right now. Of course all girls want that at some point, but I'm hoping that would develop 'organically' from a friendship or something. Anyway, having said that, I don't know how y'all do things in the UK, but here when a guy has really sporadic communication with you, you tend to get the impression that maybe he's just not that into you, you know?
If that's the case, please please don't think I will take it personally. I really hope we can be friends and I can show you around albuquerque whenever you want to come into town.

He promptly texted me telling me how gorgeous I was and how he would love to 'carry on' dating. LOL...

So, we finally had our second date and I got way to drunk (I know, I know) and he lives about 45 mins from where I am, so after dinner I agreed to let him come over for a bit after i protested for about 15 mins. As predicted, we got really into it. It was sooooo hot, and I could tell it would have been the most amazing sex I have ever had-but I didn;t do it. I cut it short at any kind of sex (if you know what I mean). So after he left I called to make sure he found his way back to the freeway and he didn;t pick up, but I watched him turn his ringer off on our date... i also sent him a text at 12:30 AM....
nothing...
I feel like a conplete idiot!! here, the first guy I have been attracted to since my divorce a year ago made a complete slut whore out of me and now is most likely never going to call me again. I'm so terrified of men, you guys. It seems the only ones I am attracted to will inevitably hurt me.
He's easily gone this long between phone calls/texts, but given the information I have, and knowing that he knows full well how vulnerable I felt and how I was concerned that if I slept with him and never heard from him again.... well, you get the point... He should have sent a quick text at some point after getting that intimate and my having mentioned repeatedly how the lack of contact makes me wonder about what his intentions are.
I got that electric feeling of not existing and of deflecting :( that awesome sexual chemistry... he was so sexual and dirty. ugh. I feel so bad about myself right now, like I wasn't good enough to hold his attention... need some love.

Mar 31 - 8AM
Steph
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For what it's worth, I don't

For what it's worth, I don't think your second date with him was a "pity" date. If he didn't want to go on a date with ya, he wouldn't have. He would have just made several excuses or just not responded to you. So, please don't feel like he saw you out of pity. You got really drunk. Ya, well, not the best move when getting to know someone.....but I think we've all been there....or done things we regret. Anyone that tells you otherwise, is lying or just really self righteous. The fact that even drunk and your inhibitions were down....you still drew the line and didn't sleep with him....shows you have some self control - so we now know you have it in you! The fact that you are this confused/emotional/upset over a couple of dates though......should probably raise an alarm within you that you aren't ready to date. I know you don't want to hear that, but you ask for opinions. My advice would be forgive yourself for your drunken date. Chalk it up to experience. Forget about the guy that you barely know anyway, get into therapy and start treating yourself like you love yourself. There is a lesson that you have not yet learned and that is that you do not need anyone to validate you. You are still seeking that outside of yourself. Until you work on that, you will constantly find yourself in these situations. As for the horniness.....get yourself a top of the line vibrator. I hope you feel better soon and I hope you start treating yourself better:) Hugs:)
Mar 31 - 2PM (Reply to #39)
ImStrong
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Im the one who told her other

Im the one who told her other wise..and im not self righteous..i feel you fail to give her real critisizm that is pretty much needed for heer because shes so young and fragile..being passive wont do the trick.. Fireflie is an adult and she needs to start responding and behaving like one..too tell her everyone foes this and that is not helping shes not learning through that..theres cociwuences for every action you take..to be passive wnaruith getting drunk on ta date and saying others are self righteous for opposing this is an embarrasement of you as An individual.. Why??? One being drunk on a date period can lead your life in danger and vonerable..she could be raped..murder theresa whole pletha of things that come with being intoxicated..it means your guards are down.. I bekeive it was a pitty date..or a sex date to get in her pants..choose anyone.. You drew the line of sex but you regret having sex fireflie ..its sought of the same..your boundries just need to be more there and firmer

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 31 - 2PM (Reply to #40)
Steph
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ImStrong

I'm not being passive. I have said many times she has issues to work on and should not be dating. That's pretty blunt, I think. I'm not promoting getting drunk on dates. I said, it happened, can't change it, learn from it. And YES I am sorry but most of us here have done silly, stupid or not so healthy things that we regret....whether that has to do with alcohol or something else. And I sure as hell do NOT feel "embarrased as an individual" for saying that.
Mar 31 - 8AM (Reply to #38)
Happy1
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staying strong78

I agree! Just go get a freaken vibrator and don't do something you'll regret later! Don't rush into something with someone when you're just learning how to like yourself again.
Mar 31 - 6AM
fierflie
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ok y'all

i emmensly appreciate all the support and 'tough love', but I don't think that tactic works well with me. I seriously don't mind constructive critism (I really really don't), but please go easy on me, ok? I'm trying, trust me. I am young and (i think) really pretty and have managed not to have sex for over a year now. Please understand how incrediblky hard it was when a guy who is sexually everything that turns me on was here, wanting me and I still said no. give me a break. I know I screwed up, that's why I am here. I'm not asking to be indulged or coddled, but just saying 'you need to wake up! get a clue', or whatever isn't very helpful. It's hard. I'm lonely, and I really really liked him, which is so rare for me. I'm honestly wondering why i didn;t just do it, because I feel as bad as I would have if I had, and at least i would have finally gotten laid. that's why i asked y'all to tell em about this whole 'everytime you have sex with a guy you give him a piece of you' thing. is this true? does it have something to do (in a psychic way) with the way we are built? I always felt so peaceful after the narc came in me (sorry for being so graphic), like i was 'getting a piece of him'. maybe that was just the oxytocin high.... I was just thinking, if i had had sex with this guy.... say, 5 times that night, i would still be high!!! ugh!! sorry, i'm all over the place... really hrony...
Mar 31 - 2PM (Reply to #36)
ImStrong
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Exactly fire its like that

Exactly fire its like that very similer...you just dont feel good when he takes a piece of your spirit..yes its very much psychic..but do you get it..do you really get oit..its bigger than cum..its your soul being taken..because the man is only there for one thing ..and you are only giving one thing..you are important.. A man should want you as a whole..and you should want to only want to give you as a whole ..not just piece of you..your worth more

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 31 - 6AM
ImStrong
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Your reality check must be walking. because you didnt get it yet

Fireflie your boundries are shakey and flimsy just like jellow...you can throw your boundries on a wall and it wont stick..first you said no to your house..then still went back to your house..your like a horny teenager..time to mature and grow up..next you said you wanted to hint your boundries to him lightly..What!!!!!!! Girl you need a realty check and fast..usually after being with a narc we usually get that..thats the only gift they give..a reality check...i dont know why your check is taking so long in the mail??? You need it and fast..you are acting very toxic yourself or very very clueless..both a really bad place to be in

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 31 - 12AM
michele115 (not verified)
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Fierflie

I missed this part... as in misinterpreted... So, we finally had our second date and I got way to drunk (I know, I know) and he lives about 45 mins from where I am, so after dinner I agreed to let him come over for a bit after i protested for about 15 mins I note you say you protested for fifteen minutes...so I am assuming you didn't think it was a good idea. NOW - your protests...were they genuine protests or were you playing coy? AND if you meant NO...what do you think happened that he was able to wear you down...what happened that you folded even if deep down you meant no? I think this is an important piece to some of the challenges you might have...again, back to the boundary issue. If it was a genuine NO...15 minutes is a long time to have to say no...and it demonstrates he was being pushy? BUT somehow, we have to figure out how to get you to a place where if you say no, you mean no and they know you mean no and deal with the no and respect the no. I'm also thinking if this is an issue/challenge - it's tied into people pleasing...
Mar 30 - 9AM
fierflie
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so......

i totally screwed this up is what you all are saying? or was it screwed from the start? i don;t think it was a 'pity date'. not argueing with y'all, i just didnt get that vibe. I just think he was seeing alot of women. I mean, i met him online and he was always on that match.com thing. he seems reeeeaaaaaally busy.... i think i was just taking it too personal. i kind of wish i had slept with him.... i did the right thing not doing that, right? no matter how good it would have been, right? i mean.... he prolly just wanted sex from someone.... and there was nothing i could have done... or was i just not relationship material? he texted me this morning and said something like... that i was a beautiful sweet lass, but that he couldn't give me what he thinks i want. he said he wasn;t in a position to text someone daily and was just out of a relationship!!! ugh... :( I totally blew it didn;t i? its so seldom that a guy attracts me and i finally met a good one and i blew it. i feel soooooo bad.
Mar 31 - 12AM (Reply to #32)
IncognitoBurrito
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Fireflie

From the sounds of it, you dodged a bullet. You "protested" for 15 mins, and he was still insistent? FLAG! He isn't proactive in communicating with you after the first date? FLAG! You act like a lady, and finally leave, before you let yourself get carried away... and he disappears? FLAG! 3 Strikes, in 2 dates?! He's out! NEXT! You were almost his one-night stand.
Mar 30 - 11PM (Reply to #31)
TLSM
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NOT YOU!

Omg! How in the world could you possibly think it was you?!?! This guy is obviously douchey!!! And THANK GOD you didn't sleep with him!!! It would NOT made a difference, except you'd feel worse. Kick the shit, I mean brit to the curb. He is a prick, and obviously more into his c*ck than he is into you and thank god for that!!! Don't converse with him anymore! He doesn't deserve you! There are plenty of sexy guys out there. Not sure your ready yet...I know I'm not!
Mar 30 - 4PM (Reply to #19)
Scoop
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He wasnt a "good one" he was

He wasnt a "good one" he was a dick ..Too shalow to see what an amazing person he was dealing with. Really put this guy down to experence . Give it a week or two and he will become "stupid Dr guy " in youre head ... i really dont think you should be dating at the moment .. move away from the match dot com , no good will come of it . Heres the thing about internet dating , the inital contact is done through the safty of a computer screan and that takes romance into a diffrent level and not a good one , the man and you can be anyone they want to be because you are missing the normal signals of body language and vibe you will have in a face to face comversations , it is a cop out for any man who before had to put the work in , on papaer he could be be brad pit if he wants to be and that gives us a unreasonalble expectation when we meet them face to face .. but because we have invested a lot of time in "courting him " on line we get caught up in the fantisy we have built up in our own heads . When the guy turns out to be a dick the dissapointment is sometimes too much to take ... and that is what i think you are dealing with right now . Being from the UK and knowing the types of blokes that study science and then go on line for a date says to me looser and even if i dare i say complete geek . Seriously , in youre head kick him to the "next" category ..You totaly did the right thing by not sleeping with this opportunist geek and he should count himself lucky that you even looked his way because in real life you wouldnt have ....Fi you are a beautiful , unique human being , aint no doubt about that , the right guy will come along when you are out doing other things .keep faith tonight . youre narc treated you like shit , god lord girl he took you to youre worst night mare , that takes time to get over , only now im i getting how much time it takes , youre narc like mine beat you , i still wonder how how a man who said he loved me could bring me so low ... spend no more time on match.com freak , he is not the issue here . big love Scoop xx
Mar 30 - 11PM (Reply to #22)
fierflie
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scoop

thank you. thank you so much for that. i realise we are here to talk about psychopaths and how horrible they are, but I think I just needed a frien to remind me of what you said. you are SO right about the expectations and how I never would have looked his way!! it's funny you should say that because my best friend and i were just saying the same thing. she was like.... if he approached you in a bar what would you have done? now, grant it, that accent would have me a little confused, but that's about it :) He's kinda geeky, but I liked that. he's balding.... which i never could stand.... and the truth is, now that i examione it, i didn;t feel good about myself when i was with him. i got the same feeling i did with the narc.... that kind of self sacrafice. Like he didnt 'see' me. I'm afraid thats what turned me on about him. he wasn't 'honest' about being a 'hoe' until i questioned him. I'm not saying he's a narc, but he may be a womanizer. thank you for that reassurance scoop... xxoxo
Mar 30 - 11PM (Reply to #23)
michele115 (not verified)
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Fierflie

I want to also reiterate I think you are an amazing person too... BUT I think like all of us, myself included, we need to get our shit together and fine tune who we are and what we're about and what we want. I think the ambiguity in those areas helped land us where we are... AND yea, we were duped, but now that we know where charm leads us...our ears, eyes and minds will be on high alert and hopefully help us to make decisions...along with following our guts. I also posted an article: "Why you might want to rethink the FWB relationship" it might be on page two?...I think you might be interested in that too because it explains what happens to us as women and how we can get hooked even if we try to convince ourselves we wont...it sets us up to get hooked.
Mar 30 - 11PM (Reply to #24)
fierflie
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michelle

thank you, i'll read that for sure. especially since a part of me is so damn hporny i thought of calling the bloke up and saying 'ok, whatever, just come do me'. its so rare that i'm really attracted to a man, and boy was i to him..... sigh... i'll go back to trying to get my shit together.
Mar 31 - 6AM (Reply to #26)
ImStrong
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That right there shows how

That right there shows how low your self eateem is..you know everytime you sleep with a guy they take a piece of you..if you keep gaving random sex..booty calls..fwb..theres going to be no you left..put the horny teenager away..and bring you to the front..we all became horny after the narc..but did we all go baxk ..or did we all have aex with wvery guy that wanted sex..can you be,atronger than that

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 31 - 6AM (Reply to #27)
fierflie
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about a guy taking a piece of you through sex

that moved me and made me feel really good abouit not doing it. can you please (or anyone please) expand on that? is it a psychic phenonenon? is it a physical one? I have only had sex with three people in my whole life and i was ina relationship with all of them. can you explain that to me?
Mar 31 - 6AM (Reply to #30)
ImStrong
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One clear example also is

One clear example also is every relationship you was in..you felt connected still after they left in some way right..its because they took a piece of you by sleeping with you..that is why we must wait to get to know a guy..learn him..we are wired for family not sex..if we go against that..we pay he price and they leave with a piece of your heart and soul..a lot of us feel unfinished after being dumped or broken up because something was taken..either our pride..self esteem..boundries..love..thats why loving yourself is very.important..so you can know these things...

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 31 - 6AM (Reply to #28)
ImStrong
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Yes..easy take prostitute for

Yes..easy take prostitute for example after years of hoeing..her face her body is incapable to hold up in some cases and usually looks like shes aged..that goes for pornstars even strippers..they always age very quickly and nee surgery to help them.. When you sleep with a man..what you have is precious but not just that..what you have is your soul..when men who literally come to Take..in the form of fwb..booty calls..one nightstands..he comes and literally takes a piece of your soul..we are built for relationships a basis of love..that is how we was created..marriage etc..for one man to have us who we must love equally..we are carriers of life..we birth human beings..we are incharge of not only passing on life but love..now stay with me fire..if we are in charge of passing.on love..we must have a basis of love..fwb do not consists of that.. Each time you sleep with a man..he takes a piece of you ..your beautiful soul..and you age in misery..because of heart break.. We as women are wired with too many emotions to just let it be..the emotions are there to create love for marriage and for our babies I garuntee you would of fell for him after the sex..and he would of easily go on his marry way and leave you because..he didnt come to stay (love)..he came to take (lust) ...a piece of you is all he wants not all

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 31 - 7AM (Reply to #29)
jen79
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agreed

Pornstars, strippers, prostitutes, look at their face, you share energy with everyone you sleep, and not only on a physical level, on other levels as well, that we cannot even comprehend. Look at us here, most of us dealt with this psychic connection long after they left us. You share a part with them, and they take it, and it takes a long time to call that piece of you back. Dont devalue your own nature, thats whats healing is all about. That is what this experience with the narc was supposed to teach you. To value yourself, your own nature. Yes you need to get laid, start to take care of it on your own, I mean really every day, every morning, every night before sleeping, till your so full of this sex hormones that you feel relaxed and at peace. And then start dating again. Not of desperation. Jerks will smell that and take advantage of that. This guy was a complete jerk and you did nothing wrong, you missed ablsolutely nothing.
Mar 30 - 11PM (Reply to #25)
michele115 (not verified)
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Fierflie!...

LMAO!...Poor baby...I do understand...really I do...but even with that...you gotta pick someone who ain't gonna make you feel bad the morning after... This guy wasn't it...if you are going to go forward...please do read that other woman I was telling you about in the link to my response...I read it and felt "schooled" She's a little raw, but I think she does speak the truth...we are tender, empathetic, and I think naieve...and the truth is, this world moves fast and if we're gonna survive in it, we better learn how to roll with it on it's terms while still looking out for ourselves and protecting ourselves. Hugs!
Mar 30 - 4PM (Reply to #20)
michele115 (not verified)
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Scoop

I don't think he was a dick...I think we know more or less the kind of guys that troll the dating sites, most of them are looking to get laid. NOW - he told her he's not interested in being committed, he did not jump her bones, he was up front and honest about what he wanted... He didn't call her right away, and that's okay... Men have the right to screw around if they want. The bad thing is when they aren't honest about it...he said it straight out he's coming out of a relationship and he wants to have some fun. How is that being a dick? Do we like that he wants to do this NO we don't but he was being honest. Yea, he flattered her...AFTER she flattered him...how could he win either way? If he didn't return the compliment he's a dick and if he does, he's a charmer. I think that what you see is what you get and if you see he's a certain way, you can't cry because he is not what you want him to be. You have to see things for what they are. NOW I feel bad Fierflie that you feel bad, but you need to get a better perspective on things and figure out what you want and then you won't engage in campaigns of ILLUSION picking people who can't or don't want to give you what you want and think that somehow you will control, fix or manipulate things to get them to fit your mold. It doens't work like that. The disordered ones...whole other story. This guy might be a hoe, but he's an honest hoe...he told you where he's at.
Mar 31 - 12AM (Reply to #21)
IncognitoBurrito
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Michele & Fireflie

"You have to see things for what they are." This is incredibly difficult to do, when you're still an open wound. It's hard to know your ass from a hole in the ground, post-narc. Let alone try and get a feel for someone else's intentions. Up is down, down is up. I think this was evident when you sent him that saccharine e-mail, Fireflie, after he did not contact you. That was totally unnecessary, and too nice, on your part. It sent an unflattering impression of you. The ball was already in his court at that point, and he dropped the ball. Should've let it stay that way. He got charged up from your sweet words, thinking you were going to be easy. Thinking he could hit it and quit it, and then was let down. I say, let him stay turned-off. Tune your vibes to a higher frequency... guys that aren't going to push you for the goods right up front.
Mar 30 - 10AM (Reply to #18)
Happy1
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fierflie

From what you just wrote I really don't think you are ready to date yet. I don't think you like or love yourself yet to know you are worth so much more. What's the rush? Just learn to love life and enjoy being you! I know you feel lonely but it's a step we all need and have to take.
Mar 30 - 10AM (Reply to #17)
really
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I don't mean to sound harsh,

I don't mean to sound harsh, but wow, you are all over the place. Reread what you just wrote... The fact that you are trying to come at this from every possible angle and thinking that it would have been BETTER if you had slept with him is very troubling. You seem very, very lost. That being said, I agree with those that say you need to spend time with yourself. You are looking outside (to this dude or whoever else is around) for approval, validation, and feelings of being worthy. This is NOT a good thing. And you will continually put yourself at risk if this doesn't stop. Yes, you did the right thing by not sleeping with him! It wouldn't have changed anything other than he may have come back for more but for all the wrong reasons. You are being very impulsive. And no, right now, you are not relationship material. I'm sorry to say that, but you have a lot to figure out and recover from before you even get close to being at that point. Feeling good in the moment and running to the next guy is not the way to make that happen. Stop and think and quit reacting. You will be much better off. You need time... hugs, really
Mar 30 - 9AM (Reply to #16)
spinning
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Fier,

please don't feel bad. Try as hard as you can to just let it go. Actually you didn't blow it. You didn't give your self away freely to someone who you don't really know. Regardless of the 'chemistry,' there is only ONE Fierflie and that "beautiful lass" should share herself only with someone who will treasure the unique gifts you have to offer with your body. I'm glad you didn't have sex with him. You should never feel that you have to have sex with someone just to get them to keep in touch. You didn't blow anything. I know what you mean about the sparks and finally feeling attracted to someone...but there will be another. Truly. And you'll be better prepared because of this experience. Chin up gal! I believe in you. sincerely (determined to stop) spinning

spinning

Mar 30 - 9AM (Reply to #15)
michele115 (not verified)
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Fierflie

i totally screwed this up is what you all are saying? or was it screwed from the start? IMHO - maybe it's fair to say a little of both. How settled do you feel within you? If you are not feeling whole and complete...things will end in disaster because you will be acting out your insecurities, doubts and issues... I just think he was seeing alot of women. Okay, so did you want a relationship or a one night stand? This is where the conflict is you don't seem to know what you want...now you disclose he was seeing a lot of women. What does that tell you about HIM off the bat? You say you don't want to get serious commitment etc, then you freak when he doens't return your call...that can't be more of a conflicting message think about it... I mean, i met him online and he was always on that match.com thing. he seems reeeeaaaaaally busy.... i think i was just taking it too personal. BUT this is messing with you because again, what you say you want and then how you follow through with actions don't compliment one another. i kind of wish i had slept with him.... i did the right thing not doing that, right? What do you think? What did you want out of it? i mean.... he prolly just wanted sex from someone.... and there was nothing i could have done... or was i just not relationship material? AGAIN...excuse me...FUCK BUDDY vs. Relationship material...two different things, two different approaches...first you have to know what you want and this whole scene screams more than anything you don't know that answer yet... he texted me this morning and said something like... that i was a beautiful sweet lass, but that he couldn't give me what he thinks i want. Okay, so he's being honest from the git...guess we can give him credit...he didn't take advantage, he could have jumped your bones and he didn't. he said he wasn;t in a position to text someone daily and was just out of a relationship!!! ugh... :( I totally blew it didn;t i? How is this blowing it? He knows where he's at and he's telling you - what else could anyone want? He wants to screw around. He has that right and you know what, I'd have to say even more so cause at least he's honest and telling you where he stands. NOW if you want to keep pushing, you can't come back later crying because he told you up front. We're only a victim when we aren't advised...he can't make it any clearer. its so seldom that a guy attracts me and i finally met a good one and i blew it. i feel soooooo bad. HUH? Fierflie, it just doesn't seem like you're ready for the game...please read those articles I suggested...
Mar 30 - 7AM
Happy1
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FF

Please take it slower. It's hard to do sometimes I'm sure, but try to take your time and get to know him first. I wouldn't bother this guy again. He doesn't sound like he's interested in anything but a good time. Best of luck dating and I hope you feel a bit better today. Happy
Mar 30 - 5AM
ImStrong
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You need to slow down Drunk and Messy dont mix

Fireflie you have to slow down..right now what I read he did nothing wrong only didnt let you know at the end he wasnt interested..but what im saying is he wasnt that into you from the begining..he made probably a few signs and gestures but he wasnt..some women especially after being with a narc tend to want to jump into a relationship quickly or after a couple of dates be way to eager.. Heres what you did wrong..tell him how sexy he is a thousand times in one text..it looks really desperate and a bit weak for him too fast..sexy men dont want to here sexy all the time..tell him something that no one else would tell him..be different.. What you did wrong number two panic ..also you gave him a excuse or answer too fast..saying that hes not that into you already because he didnt text or call..that lead him to give you a pitty date that you guys had now ..which was that second date..where is your confidence woman???? ..come on you have to be strong and sexy always with men not drunk and messy..that leads me to number three.. You got drunk on your date!!!!!! I mean are you for real..i have to give it to you straight..you messed up..we can blame these men till the sun come up but a big chunk of this is your fault too.. Now im not going to have a pitty party with you ..im a let you know straight up..you moved way to fast with the getting drunk and back to your house bit..you got to slow down..your problem is your reacting as if theres a race..you have to slow down and the men will reveal to you in there actions that you missed by the way..if there into you or not..you wouldnt have to guess or ask.. Think before you act..he did nothing wrong but go on a pitty date with you the second time..i honestly feel he wasnt that into you from the first date..dont get upset it happens to the best of us..next time please dont get drunk if your trying to be a confident lady on a date it comes off messy..

"In the fiery pit lays a man with two faces.One is the face of a God and the other a face of the Devil.Beware He lurks your souls.Keep one hand on your heart and the other hand over your eyes. Let him walk pass you not into you.Ghost of love will possess

Mar 29 - 6PM
gettinbetter
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Fierflie please sweets no

Fierflie please sweets no more dating for awhile. I think you keep interrupting any progress you are making and then you back at square 1. Not criticizing. I know you are lonely but lonely is better than being treated like shit and still being lonely.