Feeling good and missing my ex

Hi all, this is not really seeking advice or anything, I have just noticed that sometimes when I feel really good about myself I miss my ex more, and I think it is because I still associate feeling good with the good times we had. I am having a great day, getting stuff done, getting on with people, nice weather, in a groove with my kid, feeling good about myself.... and along with that there is a sadness that she (of when things were good) isn't here.

I also ended a friendship today with someone I am fond of but he is very close to my ex and I couldn't have that in my life. He totally understands which almost made it sadder. So that is probably part of it too. Like I feel good about myself for making a strong decision and honoring my commitment to NC, and yet. Another one bites the dust.

Ok that's all. Back to feeling good about myself :-). I hope everyone is having a terrific weekend.