feel so stupid, again!

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#1 Jul 18 - 6AM
notyourtoy
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feel so stupid, again!

Hello everyone,
I am new here, and very happy to be here. Thank you to Lisa and get staff for welcoming me here. I have been with what I believe is a narc or disordered guy for ten years. (excuse my poor typing, I only have a cell phone to write on) I got D&D again , I lost count now, sadly. I went 12 days NC and was proud of myself. But broke down yesterday and called. What a mistake. First he ignored my calls, then he got on and raged, called me a bitch so many times. I was crying and begging him to stop bring so mean. He didn't care. Then later he texted me saying we can still have sex, ughh but that's it. He projects his sickness on me i swear. Why are they so disgustingly cruel. ? I feel even worseworse than before. I agreed to his sexual offers, but just over the phone didn't do anything. But it's because i love him so much and thought he loved me. My story is long, but this is the most recent event. Ill share more soon, i just can't sleep now and have the old anxiety again. I feel pitiful and dumb!

Jul 18 - 11AM
notyourtoy
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thank you!

Jul 18 - 2PM (Reply to #20)
Hunter
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Healing comes from within ..

Jul 18 - 5PM (Reply to #21)
notyourtoy
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inner work

Jul 18 - 1PM (Reply to #18)
Journey
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http://www.lisaescott.com/for

Journey on...

Jul 18 - 5PM (Reply to #19)
notyourtoy
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honored

Jul 18 - 12PM (Reply to #15)
ItsFinallytime
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The best thing to do is to

Jul 18 - 5PM (Reply to #16)
notyourtoy
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itsfinallytime thank you so much!

Jul 19 - 8AM (Reply to #17)
ItsFinallytime
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Do you have a therapist or a

Jul 18 - 11AM
ziggy
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sorry

Jul 18 - 1PM (Reply to #12)
fefe65
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You need to read about what

Jul 18 - 5PM (Reply to #13)
notyourtoy
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ty fefe

Jul 18 - 11AM
Hunter
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http://www.lisaescott.com/for

Jul 18 - 9AM
fefe65
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notyourtoy

Jul 18 - 6AM
notyourtoy
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i get he

Jul 18 - 11AM (Reply to #8)
Done sourcing
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What is wrong with you that

Jul 18 - 8AM (Reply to #4)
ALH
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They are powerfully addicting

Jul 18 - 9AM (Reply to #5)
wanttobefree
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Recovery Links

Jul 18 - 10AM (Reply to #6)
ALH
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Links

Jul 18 - 10AM (Reply to #7)
wanttobefree
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Thank you!

Jul 18 - 7AM (Reply to #2)
Hunter
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Read the information

Jul 18 - 10AM (Reply to #3)
wanttobefree
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Thank you