Emotions after NC a few months

I had been doing so well and just celebrated 7 months NC and then BAM, back down the rabbit hole for a couple of days. I ended up see my therapist to get back on track.

It turns out, after talking, that I am upset and stressed about a lot of things...time management, job pressures, volunteer work, child getting ready for school. I realized I had stopped taking care of myself. Last time I had a massage? 3 months ago; Last time I took a nap or slept in? at least 2 months ago

My therapist pointed out that my bad feelings/sadness about the N have been a part of me for so long, that when I get upset, I automatically go back to thinking it must be about him.

My marching orders were to get a massage by my next session and start taking better care of myself. Then, she said I can have better peace and order in my life. I am happy to report I went home, took a bath, shaved my legs and finally got my eyebrows waxed today! And I do feel better.

I wanted to share this for those of us a few months out. I think we need to allow ourselves to be happy and not fall back on those old feelings from the relationship with the N. For me, it's a process of letting go and continuing to realize it is over, FOREVER, and there is simply no going back.