Drunk and want to contact.

That is all.

Figured I'd post here instead. I rarely drink because it makes me miss him. Then I'm a mess of a crying drunk and no one wants to deal with that. Tonight though? Bottle of champagne and my cat.

No contact since may 21... He did Hoover about a month ago. I'm sure there have been no others bc he's with OW. Who is not a catch at all, I might add. I always heard the adage "if you cheat, cheat up." I'm sorry, but she is a massive downgrade from me. I don't get why he cheated and discarded me...the week he did it I had sent him an anniversary gift (LDR) where he commented that he "loved loved loved it" and that it made him cry. The week of the final D&D he was talking about saving up money for a ring. I get that supply is supply and she "fit" better for him....I just don't get why, when he had a long term gf of many years who openly adored him and provided so much supply, he moves on to another that to me, seems like such a massive downgrade. Likewise I know I shouldn't want him and don't really do want him. I just want love. And he could never really give that.

Whatever. Like I said, these are just drunken ramblings to bide my time.