DONT TAKE IT PERSONAL
DONT TAKE IT PERSONAL
They idealize you. They love you, admire you, worship you. You think that you have hit the jack pot. You have met your soul mate.
You commit. Maybe get married. Then the cracks start to show. And If your a person of moral fortitude, you just keep trying. Loving this person. You committed yourself, for better or worse. Yes, it's been worse for a while, but your not a quitter.
Then the D & D. A couple of times. Then real ugly abuse, emotional, spiritual, and physical. Then the pain, of losing yourself. Trying to have a relationship with someone who is sick really sick. But you don't know that yet. You just know that you have been thrown out like a piece of shit. Your heart is broke in a thousand little fragments. And we internalize this. Like there is something wrong with us.
THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH US, are you hearing me ladies and gents. There is absolutely nothing wrong with us. Yes we have issues. Everyone does. We were picked and hunted by a animal! Yes, he might of look like a human being, but he is not. He is a soulless, vampire, that hunts and uses people for his own purposes. He does not have qualities of a human being, such as a conscience, empathy, shame. He abides by no social norms. Marital vows mean nothing. But we don't know this yet. So, when we are devalued and discarded, we internalize it. We think there is something wrong with us. How could we have fallen for this. Ladies, the best in the mental health field are fooled by the n/p.
We have to wake up. GO NO CONTACT NO MATTER WHAT. Educate ourselves, read, read and read about NPD. Find sites like this. And HEAL.
They picked us because we have qualities that they will never have. They picked us because they are just an empty hole that needs to be fed by strong, intelligent, women with depth.
Ladies, please, educate yourselves. Go no contact. Process what has been done to you. We are worth so much more than a weak, ego driven, empty shell of a person with npd.
Love
Jen
Great post!!
momoya
I 100% agree
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gratefuljen
Oh so true...so so true!
Great Post!
very nicely put SM! :)
Playedwithfire
Smitten, AWESOME
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