Do you ever feel this way?
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Mar 4 - 1PM
Do you ever feel this way?
After 70 days of proper nc I feel a lot better. More confident, happier…taking the necessary distance has helped me see things with a clear eye. Most of the times I don’t doubt myself. But sometimes I wonder if I dreamed about the whole thing. Like did he really say or do that then? Was he really disordered? And then I say of course he was why do you keep wondering? I remember his apathy and cruelty and I become enraged. Will this feeling ever go away? It was more intense during the first days of NC to tell you the truth…but, will I continue to doubt myself from time to time?
I appreciate you all took the
Belle de jour
Journey on...
the other thing i do is
I sometimes wonder if the
Doubting
omg.... i was just thinking