do they know they are securing us as 'supply'?
do they know they are securing us as 'supply'?
I was wondering, do they even know that they are engaging in a 'set' practise.
If they are and we are sure they are so self absorbed. Then I wonder if they even get that they are in a programme of adenda-ed narcissism.
I know he thinks he is right and that he firmly believes all his magical thinking.
but is he pathalogically controlling me with his ntuts behaviour and game playing or is the drama and whirlwinds just a product of his ill thinking. Is he really too ill to know he is so deeply unkind to me or does he each emotional punishmnent dished out really give him pleasure and supply????
I wonder do they know they are securing people around them like objects????
They think they are people and that we are human too in some manner but if they are NOT HUMAN and not so inherently evil can they at least control the level of narissism they unleash..
They defo think they are superior in every way to everyone around them,
They definitly use launguge and communication as a war tactic.
But do they ever feel real remorse, regret or pitty.
I am giessing NOT...
But the reason I Ask this is becasue after my ex narc dumped me and then drilled me in and out of his relatioinship with new woman and I took loads of bad drugs and got into a very bad place. I was horrible to people I had relationsips with. I attarcted more predetors and became more unstable and simply took more drugs and outwardly attacked my friends and lovers.
BUT I always knew what I Was doing, why I was doing it and when I started healing and got healthy, the people I found in my life were better healthier people and I had no need to hurt or be angry with those around me. I was utterly changed... I balmed it on the grief of loosing my father to a stroke. I got back into voluntary work and helpoing others. I was less anrgy at myself for being hoodwinked and treated like a idiot. I was really ready to find a healthier exsistence.
BUT these days... the more I know about NARC-ism
I am wracked with guilt.
I am hounded by dreams of those times.
I am traumatised and scarred emotionally by the train wreck I Was of a person.
I still get pretty low thinking about the nice people I have hurt in my life and it feeds into my low self esteem.
BUT
I AM GUESSING> A NARC NEVER FEELS BAD...EVER?
They justify behaviours, they tell themselves they are always in the right no matter what the perpetrations are or were.
I am guessing true NARCS just dont ever learn. They will wreck lives and keep doing it.
They will never see the damage they do?
We hold out hope for it?
But it never comes.
WE thubk they are wired up to care like we do/are.
That is why I am lonley now because I believe in Karma.
I made myelf isolated to learn this lesson..
I believe in that but what I wonder if why TRUE NARCS just dont ever seem to be dripping with there destined Karma (YET). Most of the time they seem to be 'living it up'. One woman after another and loving it...
NO. I prob answered my own question.
They dont ever feel bad, change or learn do they?
Evil is evil...
They know what they're doing
he sound slike a real piece
It was a power play
Vix
Hey vix excelent question ,
Do they know?
I can assure you that mine
only one way to go...Forward (tm?)
Vix
Ending the dance
Ex N told me when he was
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Thanks. I know I will get
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