Discovery....after initial idealization, I was the one who was doing the pursuing
Discovery....after initial idealization, I was the one who was doing the pursuing
I have begun to journal out everything and it has been a tough thing. Tougher still is to realize that after the initial "idealization", I am the one who did most (ok, ALL) the pursuing. I would randomly text him to see if he was ok, all under the guise of trying to figure out what was going on. I thankfully did a little journaling while we were seeing each other and there is page after page of me texting him, worrying about him and whether he would return and then a few days or weeks later, I'd get a text or phone call (relief). This happened for months, and as it progressed, I see a trend that it took longer and longer between replies. My therapist has told me that that is what N's do, they don't really "end" it...but they distance themselves more and more. In any event, as you can imagine, this was a disappointing revelation but also explains why NC has been SO hard. I just thought I'd share and see if anyone else had a similiar experience.
They like the attention of
In the beginning, it was
We have all shared this experience, unfortunately
Distancing
Wallaby..that was totally brill......
Constantly the actor...Never the PERSON
pursuit?
My ex-N to a tee
Yes. He was made a good
Peace. J