Did not anticipate this
Did not anticipate this
Hello friends!
It seems like the longer I've been out of the situation, the worst it seemed for me. In the beginning of my recovery, I started to feel better and I actually had some really good days. I was sleeping well at night, doing more activities and meeting new friends.
Lately, I feel like my life is unraveling. Although I had been working out, I am gaining more weight. I know because I am eating more. I am unable to do homework and barely able to meet my responsibilities at work. I still go to therapy and reading self- help books. I still have good days but my bad days are outweighing the good ones.
Now, I feel like I am crying more often. Interestingly, not for the N but for what I put myself through. I do get sad about the experience and still keep looking back. I read gemofagirl's post yesterday and I realized the reason why I keep looking back and sad over the end of that N experience was during the "putting his hooks" on me phase was the last time I was in love ( and thought that I was loved back), the last time I felt good about myself, the last time that I had faith in my God and in my life. Prior to this, I knew that regardless what life throws at me, I knew I could get through it and that things would always turn out ok.
I feel really lost. My soul and my core was really sucked out of me. And I've been trying to reclaim it. It's just been extremely, extremely hard.
The phases of healing and how we avoid pain...NORMAL
Hello truth! Thank you for
You get it and remember YOU are the most important goal
Not this time, what you are
Journey on...
You have to take each day as
Journey, when I become
It's a step to healing
Luv2bme, I think you are
Not this time~on the right path..
luv2bme
Luv2bme, thank you for your
Thank you~not this time
Hope was the last item out of Pandora's Box
Thank you portia! I always
Hugs to you. I can totally
Hello gemofagirl! Your post
Read the book slowly. A few
its part of the cycle
Hello deadened
This is good advice,
Frog legs, I am glad I am not
We'll be here for you
Thanks froglegsss!!!!