I am the one to blame, I did it, but at least I have my last proof what liar he is. I fuckin liar. I am so mad I dont even know what to say, only this, I am mad at myself that he occupied my mind cause I wasnt sure if I should believe him, feeling guilty, letting his toxic words come to my heart and doubt myself.
Now again he seems to be back with his ex (stupid stupid girl). But its ok, only confirms all what I have picked up, all the unspoken words, all the vibes I got, all the pictures popping up in my mind. Never ever will I doubt myself again. I dont give a fuck if anyone calls me crazy, I will never ever doubt the things that I feel and see, even if I have no proof for it, even if it is supernatural whatever.
I have my proof now, he is nothing more than a piece of shit, a liar, and manipulator, soulless and I will never ever even allow myself for one second out of compassion and hoping the best to let this devil get one foot in my life again.