Demasked the beast - No hoovering for me
Demasked the beast - No hoovering for me
I called an ace an ace! In no uncertain terms. No more cognitive dissonance for me.
It was very freeing. I texted him, just several sentances that I know what it is. I don't care if it was negitive ns, it was my closure.
I have no more emotional pain trying to come to terms, of what it really is. Total honesty with myself.
All I ever was was ns. It never loved me. It took a while to accept that in my heart, but its the truth. And when I accepted that deep in my heart, I found freedom.
Freedom from the pain, freedom of the truth. Freedom from the obsession of it.
It's a hard pill to swallow. My heart resisted. But I plugged a head. It's four months today, that I kicked the nh to the curb.
I am so much better in four short months. I want to thank god, you guys, aa, and myself. We have come a long way toward healing.
Love you guys
Jen
final text
Final message to my narc
congrats Jen, I believe a
good for you
Tearing the mask off
gratefuljen
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