Day 1 NC it's been a loooooong time coming

I know I have posted things on my current relationship and got some tough love(which I needed)... After all the crap I allowed him to do to me today is my first day of NC!! I feel very hurt betrayed and I FUCkING hate him... I'm ready now to get me back:) I'm so ready to be me again!! I've had a rightness in my chest but not in my gut. Thank you Goldie and the mods for getting so real with me ....I've been to embarrassed to update anyone about what's been going on with all that drama (because I went back) but today I have had enough and decided I am worth soooo much more... I feel like crying but I'm just cried out I'm ready to work the steps... He may have beat me but he WILL NOT break me... It's time for this girl to get real!!! No more poor pathetic victim.. I FUCKING HATE HIM!!!! The icing is on my cake.....finally