Bulletproof... made me cry

Driving in to work today I was fine, until... this song came on. It is a happy peppy feel good song, yes? Why did it make me cry? I am not really a crier, meaning don't cry when "normal" people would. Since I am an empath, I cry when pwople I love cry, but not for me, for them. F'ed up I know.

ANyway...

Been there, done that messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

I won't let you in again
The messages I tried to send
My information's just not going in

Burning bridges shore to shore
I break away from something more
I'm not turned on to love until it's cheap

Been there, done that messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now, I'm much too proud
To walk away from something when it's dead

Do, do, do your dirty words
Come out to play when you are hurt?
There's certain things that should be left unsaid

Tick, tick, tick, tick on the watch
And life's too short for me to stop
Oh baby, your time is running out

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do is fill me up with doubt

This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof

This time I'll be bulletproof
This time I'll be bulletproof

This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof
This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof

michele115's picture

You asked why it made you cry...for me just reading the words, it is a bit sad - going through an experience that pushes someone to make themselves "bulletproof" As empaths, we've been burned badly by someone we loved - be it an illusion or not, our feelings were real. In a way, for me, not only is it a sense of mourning the relationship, but also a form of innocence lost...I find myself looking at the world through different eyes and not sure if I will ever be the same... I know I will heal, I believe I can still love, but it's done some damage I'm not sure I can recoup... That might be it...
sickandtiredofit's picture

What I wish I could be now - what I wish were true.