Broke NC to tell him off..SOrry!!..Had to be done

sometimes we need to get it out for our own sanity, then we need to look at ourselves and see what makes us stay with a personality like this..I am home alone on a friday night, knowing that I could have a date or two or go up the street to the local tavern, but I still don't trust my judgement in men and my girlfriends are married and home with families...as I used to be..so I too struggle with WTF as we all do...but voicing it to the N will ony give him satifaction in the end..so. I'm back to playing piano nd drinking red wine..we support here,,so say what you want to US..at least we listen, they can't. cheers dear

A normal person with any ability to reason may have at the beginning denied or tried to skirt around it; however, anyone with a true conscious at some point would have felt some remorse - even if ultimately they concluded that their actions were a symptom of something deeper and that the relationship was not mutually satisfying - whatever. A genuine person would at some point come around and apologized for hurting you, tried to make amends and walked away with their tale between their legs. These jackasses in their arrogance and self entitlement, cannot look beyond themselves. They are sick and dangerous. I am not going to say every one of them are capable of pulling a Jeffrey Dahmer;however, they do damage to the psyce AND they sadisticly enjoy it! Realizing that is how I was able to finally say oh no, fuck you! Puerto Rican AND Italian over here, a fatal mix when pissed off and seriously when mad, I remember one time in my past, past, past when pregnant and I found out my son's father was cheating, in such a rage knocking down a door, punching him in the face, slamming a living room door that fell which I then tried to pick up and beat him with. I've tried to warn people that although I believe I am passed such insanity, don't push me. Typically as a Capricorn I'm patient but don't go certain places. I'm happy to report that I have never had another episode like that again; however, if it showed once, the predisposition is there. It took a lot of self control, you are not alone in your rage, not by a long shot. So, the purpose of this is not to lecture you, but to give you some comfort that you are not suffering alone, we've all been there, identify and support your healing. I told the Narc I could rip his head off and shit down his neck and Shorway, I meant it with every fiber of my being. When someone comes at you like that and all you get is a smirk, you are dealing with a force that cannot be reached. You said your peace, now starve the fucker. It will be the best revenge and your greatest blessing will be that you NEVER hear from him again. Leave him to the skanks!

A normal person with any ability to reason may have at the beginning denied or tried to skirt around it; however, anyone with a true conscious at some point would have felt some remorse - even if ultimately they concluded that their actions were a symptom of something deeper and that the relationship was not mutually satisfying - whatever. A genuine person would at some point come around and apologized for hurting you, tried to make amends and walked away with their tale between their legs. These jackasses in their arrogance and self entitlement, cannot look beyond themselves. They are sick and dangerous. I am not going to say every one of them are capable of pulling a Jeffrey Dahmer;however, they do damage to the psyce AND they sadisticly enjoy it! Realizing that is how I was able to finally say oh no, fuck you! Puerto Rican AND Italian over here, a fatal mix when pissed off and seriously when mad, I remember one time in my past, past, past when pregnant and I found out my son's father was cheating, in such a rage knocking down a door, punching him in the face, slamming a living room door that fell which I then tried to pick up and beat him with. I've tried to warn people that although I believe I am passed such insanity, don't push me. Typically as a Capricorn I'm patient but don't go certain places. I'm happy to report that I have never had another episode like that again; however, if it showed once, the predisposition is there. It took a lot of self control, you are not alone in your rage, not by a long shot. So, the purpose of this is not to lecture you, but to give you some comfort that you are not suffering alone, we've all been there, identify and support your healing. I told the Narc I could rip his head off and shit down his neck and Shorway, I meant it with every fiber of my being. When someone comes at you like that and all you get is a smirk, you are dealing with a force that cannot be reached. You said your peace, now starve the fucker. It will be the best revenge and your greatest blessing will be that you NEVER hear from him again. Leave him to the skanks!

A normal person with any ability to reason may have at the beginning denied or tried to skirt around it; however, anyone with a true conscious at some point would have felt some remorse - even if ultimately they concluded that their actions were a symptom of something deeper and that the relationship was not mutually satisfying - whatever. A genuine person would at some point come around and apologized for hurting you, tried to make amends and walked away with their tale between their legs. These jackasses in their arrogance and self entitlement, cannot look beyond themselves. They are sick and dangerous. I am not going to say every one of them are capable of pulling a Jeffrey Dahmer;however, they do damage to the psyce AND they sadisticly enjoy it! Realizing that is how I was able to finally say oh no, fuck you! Puerto Rican AND Italian over here, a fatal mix when pissed off and seriously when mad, I remember one time in my past, past, past when pregnant and I found out my son's father was cheating, in such a rage knocking down a door, punching him in the face, slamming a living room door that fell which I then tried to pick up and beat him with. I've tried to warn people that although I believe I am passed such insanity, don't push me. Typically as a Capricorn I'm patient but don't go certain places. I'm happy to report that I have never had another episode like that again; however, if it showed once, the predisposition is there. It took a lot of self control, you are not alone in your rage, not by a long shot. So, the purpose of this is not to lecture you, but to give you some comfort that you are not suffering alone, we've all been there, identify and support your healing. I told the Narc I could rip his head off and shit down his neck and Shorway, I meant it with every fiber of my being. When someone comes at you like that and all you get is a smirk, you are dealing with a force that cannot be reached. You said your peace, now starve the fucker. It will be the best revenge and your greatest blessing will be that you NEVER hear from him again. Leave him to the skanks!

I definitely understand how you feel, I have never had my emotions pushed to the brink as they have been dealing with an alien. They are masters of illusion, very delusional in their thinking/thought process. Once they are caught "with their britches down" they morph into Satan himself, see, not only have you caught him cheating, you have also discovered one of his greatest fears: being figured out, and the threat of exposing him too? You will become his enemy for sure, this is when true colors will shine oh so bright. If there is any danger of physical harm from him get yourself into a protective environment, he may come gunN for you. You may have set yourself up for revenge as well. His reaction may be dangerous if he is of a violent nature. You never know what they are capable of because we never really get to know them. I'm glad you feel better but please be careful, he may retaliate, best wishes.

All the Narcness in its "gory" surfaced right after the cheating. YUP YUP YUP.... And he is an NA posterboy.... umhmmmmm

And you said you weren't disappointed in your behavior all those times, too.