Big Bouts of Anxiety.
Big Bouts of Anxiety.
Hello All.
I guess Im just looking for some supportive words of encouragement...or just venting. I have had big bouts of anxiety today, I woke up throwing up. However, I have the most awesome friends in my life and they are ALL coming over tonight. I just want to be able to enjoy the night and not be thinking of him all night.
After I was sick this morning, I lied down and said to myself...
why are you letting him do this to you?
why are you jealous of what he is doing?
someone else has to put up with him talking.
someone else has to put up with his bogus self absorbed stories.
you dont have to sit around wondering when he will insult you next or make you feel stupid.
you dont have to snoop around his house tonight wondering whats been going on.
FUCK him....he will always be this low life with no job, no real "friends" and live in the shadow of everyone else.
He cant yell at me when things dont go his way.
He cant tell me how wanted he is by all his friends gf's (im serious)....OMG writing that is hilarious and all women just find him irresistible.
WOW - really, I thought I was the only one who didnt car about your lack of employment, vehicle, morals etc...
Having said all of that...I still hurt (obviously)...but I can't allow him to continuously do this to me. I will go to the gym on Saturday and I will start a new routine!! I will take back my life, he will slowly lose his. Im repairable. HE IS NOT. I am not worthless because he doesnt appreciate me, and could care less about me.
And to the next women that gets him....WOW, you know what I hope you do believe the BS he is going to tell you about me. Because like me, you will then feel like the BIGGEST fool in the world later for believing it. I hated his ex for the stuff she said about him, and the stuff she assumed about me. But they were right about him, and I
was naive. I hated when mutual friends that knew him said...."wow your with him, hmmm" I was that girl,
"you just dont know him like I do, ...hes soooo different with me" NOPE..they were right and I will now admit I was wrong.
Yes I am embarrassed, Yes I am in a lot of pain, Yes I still struggle with the fact I fell for it and part of me still wishes it was real.
Anyway, I will fight through the tears as I really do not want to be broken anymore.
xowhatever.
thanks!
Wow your words resonated
The heart has a different