Being the new trick test ,LAB RAT

YES they are predictable. but not in a way that YOU can manage.

Once you get the GAME and point it out...they jsut get a better game. A NEW trick. NO rules for them, NO boundaries. YOU will NOT prevail. If you see a pattern of sick. GO! leave, say nothing, it's not about being smart. It's about being safe. If you go NC and read, force yourself and trust that YOU need to work on your pain, you and your stuff. HE had enough of your time and life. YOU gave. STOP.

It's important to SEE the patterns but not stick around to prove it. Note the sickness and LEAVE. AS fast as you can and NOT give them any more words...do not entertain their NEW TRICK. DO not let yourself become the NEW TRICK TESTING subject/lab rat.
One example:
I remember..after years of discussion disagreements or especially when I brought up something he did and wanted to bring it up. There was never a resolution without hours of talk, hours of me being hurt, being targeted. It always turned back to me.

When I stopped and payed attention. I saw a pattern to his tricks. He had 4 games , His "go to" bs

I wrote them down before I brought up something ..in order and when we were finished, with no resolve. I showed it to him.

It was an eye opener for me but at the same time it made me feel so sick. He'd been doing it for so long and I hadn't put it together. He exhausted me for years with his sick game.

Seeing the pattern..how he had 4 phases of his BS that led to no accountability

Phase 1 It did NOT happen.... a joke... forgot... or I made too much of it...this took forever to "jog his memory" or if I didn't back down because I couldn't "prove it..exhausting. If I got past this stage he went to

phase 2 he brought up some fake past offense of mine..again defending myself now (issue deflected)I'm exhausted again

Phase 3 someone else caused it mixed with poor him and his childhood. He is hurting and feels attacked.Mixed with..theres something wrong with me if I think he COULD really do or say something like that on purpose and we can't hold him accountable for a mistake.He is innocent.

Phase 4..crazy lying B... he never admitted anything.He never said this in the beginning of the discussion. I never heard him say this , this or this )during the discussion) and the offense never happened. This is where he took back anything remotely close to being accountable.We are now arguing about the discussion.
Before I knew it we were arguing about what he said during the argument.I am a crazy, mean, LYING B^*%#.

After I discovered the pattern and the goal was sick and exhausting...things were hopeless.

so basically it didn't happen..I'm the problem, mean and mistaken, minimize the offense, feel sorry for him, help, him, He is the real victim and I am a lying crazy B#$$@

Now I know they i stopped speaking up for myself for so long. I ran out of strength and I ended up being the offender.

His crap was so wordy with twists and turns..it would have been hard for anyone to recall it all. HE banked on that.
ALWAYS

I had been there too long and did not trust myself so here is what I did. I SHOULD have walked away but nope... I wanted my sanity back.
I made notes during the arguments/dicussions. I next asked him to write down things he said. He refused to do it..then I stopped and did it for him and put it in front of him..and then we could move on.It saved my sanity but still exhausted me. ONE tiny disagreement should have taken about 10 minutes to resolve but it took hours and hours of exhaustion.

When I recorded him and found that he did say things and later in the discussion said he did not.. I realized that we spent more time arguing about what he said that the original issue got lost butI and was no longer feeling crazy..ONLY duped, gamed and exhausted. This got him to get help because I KNEW it wasn't me. I should have walked here again. He got a better game and kept me around to harm for another year. I was his trick testing LAB RAT.

EXhausting and harmful for me. Shedding light on this was freeing in one way ( my sanity back) but so painful a truth.(fear and hurt) Trauma for me when I knew he enjoyed doing this to me.

I'm triggered and exhausted just writing all of this.

I will NOT BE A TRICK TESTING subject for such a sick
person any longer.

They have no rules, no boundaries . The more you see and tell them...the more they hate and resent you for making them work harder. Then they get a high with the new trick if it works.

After I outted his game...he got new tricks.I was the dying lab rat. I was being changed with bad stuff. I was developing wounds and I was dying. he didn't inject the poison, he changed my food and I was relieved. Then he put it in my treats(hope).( disguised as a good thing) I ate, trusting things would get better.POISON .

If you believe their changes, apologies, hoovers etc. Its one more dose and one more test. SICK

NEVER again! I'm spending the energy ON ME and the things about me that kept me there. On MY WAY!

I'm being triggered by things lately and getting it out.

if there is anything here that opens your eyes sooner...even better. If not , it was good for me.

Truth