Being Friends: What I'd Say To Him Now

It's like this, Narc Boy. We can't be friends. There are two major reasons:

1) You've hurt me. Really, really hurt me, really deeply and really badly. The thing is, you refuse to even acknowledge this happened, let alone apologise. Now either you're refusing to apologise, in which case you're continuing to be hurtful and don't respect me, or alternatively you see nothing to apologise for, in which case, frankly, you're either so inhuman as to not care at all for my feelings, or you're living in a fantasy world where you've done nothing wrong. I don't live in that world, I live in the real world. Because of this, any time we're friends, this sits in the background like the elephant in the room, and instead of staying in the background it resurfaces over and over again. It's unresolved.

2) Every time I've had dealings with you, apart from right at the start, it's been a fight. A long, constant power struggle. At the start you were a nice guy, supportive and appreciative of me for just being me. After that I slowly became something to criticise, pour doubt on, and look down on. You became something I looked up to...and it became something expected. That's just the way it was - you were better than me. Thing is, you're not. You never were. And even IF you were, I don't need a friend like that. From my end, it means I get my confidence constantly tested, and I get toyed with and pushed around, and treated with disrespect.

I don't want any of this. I respect myself too much to return to this abuse - and that's what it really is: Abuse.