Been obsessing lately of the horrible things he did!

I woke up this morning and my head was spinning again! It's only been 3 months since he left me and I have been doing great with NC so I know I still have a long road.

Anyway about 2 years ago (this part was not in my story)we were on our way home from a football game and decided to stop and eat. He was already drunk and kept drinking. He got annoyed at something and we began to argue. I told him I wanted to drive home (my car) and he would not let me. He was yelling and screaming at me and kept going faster! I was so scared and told him to stop or slow down. He slammed on the brakes and the car did circles then rolled over about 3 times. I have NEVER been so scared in my life! The car landed on his side. I was literally hanging in the air by my seatbelt. The ambulance had to shatter the windshield and carefully take me out. He had cuts on the side of his head but all in all thank God we were ok and ALIVE! The cop immediately took him to jail. I didn't know what to do. We were living with his parents at the time until my house was built. They didn't want to help. Had already been through too much crap with him. I took a cab to police station and bailed him out that morning.

I should have left him then, but felt I had nowhere else to go. My parents were furious! My exh was furious and I can't believe I let myself get involved in all this.

I am just very hurt and having a sad day today about everything that has happened. How he can blame me for all his shit and immediately move on to someone else.

Thanks for listening! I was just doing so good and now I'm crying again! Hate it.