Anyone else constantly on the hunt for information

Hello everybody

I just joined the other day, but Ive been reading for a while. You ladies seem to know so much about these guys.

I don't feel anything like my old self. I'm lost now. I hurt all the time and I can't stop thinking about him. I want to but I can't. Is it just me or have any of you found yourselves on the internet reading everything you can about narcs and psychopaths? Maybe if I could make more sense out of it I could push myself out of this pain.

The hardest part is that he already moved on. He flaunts this girl around our friends. How can he do this to me? He is the one who cheated but its me that's being punished! I feel like Im not good enough and I never felt like that before. What makes him want her and not want me.

Sorry for the ramble.

Bethany