anxiety looms..this is harder than i thought

And its all in my head. I didnt sleep well. I replayed past events. Had imagined conversations..yiu know... Those things i am going to say to him and ow. It took me four hours to leave the house we are staying in.

But i finally came out and took the kids to one of the parks. I am over analyzing cars. Over thinking what i think he will do or where he will be etc. Etc.
This is hard and i am a bucket of anxiety.

And right now it looks like one of the guys he supposedly sponsors is coming to the park. So i think i should tell him his sponsor is a fake and a liar and a cheater and a whore who cant keep his dickinhis pants.

Omg. I think i may puke.

Working on day 17 and very very much fighting fear and anxieety

Round3