And then I remembered he never cared

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#1 Mar 10 - 11AM
Ophelia
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And then I remembered he never cared

This morning I was greeted with some good news. Some work I'd done as an activist citizen was met with success, I stopped some bad guys from doing bad things to some wildlife. My first thought was of how much I missed my N, with whom I would have shared this wonderful news, and my relief and pride on this little victory. I almost allowed myself to start feeling sad that we are NC and he's not in my life to share this with.

And then I remembered how last year when I told him about my work on this project he said absolutely nothing. It's pretty core to who I am, and I was surprised that he didn't even acknowledge it, ask questions, nothing, even when we were speaking on the phone. That was disappointing, since this stuff is pretty core to who I am. I felt disappointment, but I brushed it aside.

So this morning I realized that there was nothing to be sad about, that telling him about this would have been as rewarding as telling the air, because he never cared in the first place. I am happy with myself, I know those critters would be happy if they knew, and that's all that matters.

I don't need him to validate what I did or do, and never did.

Mar 11 - 11AM
Sparrow
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Congratulations on your

Mar 11 - 8AM
Christine66
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I know what you mean!

Mar 10 - 8PM
SundaySmile
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and then

Mar 10 - 3PM
sadderbutwiser
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ophelia

Mar 10 - 10PM (Reply to #3)
phantom adoration
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Thanks for sharing this

Mar 11 - 8AM (Reply to #4)
SundaySmile
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holy crap

Mar 11 - 9AM (Reply to #5)
phantom adoration
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I love this site because the

Mar 10 - 2PM
florence (not verified)
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Absolutely!