And the beating shall continue until MY morals increase

How dare I question him or bring to his attention of something I heard about him from a reputable source. For he would NEVER hurt me, he loves me to much he would never talk bad about me and ge would never lie to me or cheat on me or hit me...never never never unless I make him lie to me cuz he just can't talk to me.. He'd never hit me but...." girl u make me so mad u made me do that to you." cheat on me? " girl your crazy your driving me away from u." I have left my nbf a couple of times and stayed away it broke his heart he said I hurt him to the core..he would never leave me and I left him SEVERAL times..,but I always go back thinking it will be different believing his sweet texts his sweet ways wanting his touch craving his love.
The confrontation aboutthe dirty pics onhis phone I thought went well I thought we kinda settled it..he talked to the guy that"said" my n showed him the guy lied . Anyways I was so upset my n wanted to take me to dinner and a movie he wanted to talk to me face to face.. See on the phone I screamed and yelled in person I know how I shut up and listen to him and above all don't question him.. So at dinner he makes fun of my eyeshadow saying" well that's an intense white. What's up with that." make comments on how I sit how I look why am I not talking.. U see u let him talk I tell him"is this how it's gonna go... A fight?" and that's when I meet the other side we walk into a movie and he gets mad that u don't tell him who told me about the lie... He walks out of the movie I follow him outside and he accuses me of wanting to believe everyone but him and protect everyone but him.. Hes mad he wants to go for a walk I say no...I want to stay where people can see me he gets mad gets in his car and drives off I think to myself ,"pheww maybe he'll go home and calm down." nope, he drives up tell me to get in I say no he tells me to get in I still say no...see I know nitro get in that car when he's that mad cause he's too mad.. He jumps out of his car and I run into a fast food place and sit at the booth ge tells me to grab my stuff and let's go I say no .. He says he FN hates me I'm crying he says people are watching and I'm making everyone uncomfortable he tells me to grab my purse and go he won't hurt me he wants to see what I'm made of...I say no he tells me he hates me I've ruined his life he F@CKING hates me I say I'm scared and tell him to calm down... I grab my purse and walk outside and as were walking out the cops show up..I dry my eyes and I'm shaking the cops ask him if there's a problem he laughs and says wer having a disagreement both cops look at me I keep my head down he tells them he'll walk off so they can talk to me alone the cops ask me if I'm ok ... And you know what I say? I'm fine everything is ok.. So my nbf yells me how much he loves me all he wants to do for me how much I mean...and then he says to me " see girl you bring all this crazy unwanted attention on us you need to trust me have faith in us and relax.." and I feel all of me shatter..I know I'll never leave or be me ever again I love him ...I would never hurt him I could never say I hate him...