Am I moving forwards or backwards?
Am I moving forwards or backwards?
Hello everyone,
It's a while since I've been on here, I've been trying to move on and last time I came here was for advise re my ex psychopath and the ongoing trauma he was putting me through :(
All that seems to have calmed down..... for the moment at least, I really AM moving on :) I look in here occasionally and feel really selfish for feeling so damned good after being ten months out of the nightmare. I have absolutely NO feelings of love toward my P now WHATSOEVER. I actually feel blessed to have escaped his clutches and have gotten to this point.
Hmmmm but now here is where my NEW problem lies. I joined a dating site a few months ago and met one or two guys who really weren't my cup of tea...I knew before even meeting them, but because of the person I am I somehow felt obliged to meet them anyway as they were so damned keen, and then proceeded to let them down gently...escaped the short dates as quickly as possible and vowed to try again. I have to admit to having a lot of fun on this site and it's boosted my confidence in a big way!
Now to my dilemma. Two weeks ago I went on a date with a guy I'd been speaking to for a few weeks and I really got on with him. It knocked me for 6 how we seemed to click, how much we had in common until something really strange happened. He mentioned once or twice about me resembling his boss, apart from being a little younger and slimmer and proceeded to show me a photograph that he found on a website on his I Phone? I have to be honest, she looked a little like me, but that was all....but that same evening she turned up in the pub we were in with her husband and another couple and apparently it was a COMPLETE co-incidence. Hmmm now this was a Tuesday night in my local town....these people, my date included, come from a city 20 miles away? He told me they came in and I proceeded to suggest we went and said hello to them. He was apprehensive and asked me to pretend I was his girlfriend WTF? At the time I was wine infused and didnt read too much into this. Then when I thought about it later thought....WOAH, hang on, there is something fishy here? If he'd never mentioned my resemblance to his boss and he hadnt brought our date forward at really short notice then it would have gone straight over my head, but serious alarm bells started ringing and I told him I would not be seeing him again. I left amicably after saying goodnight and he proceeded to text me saying how much he'd enjoyed our date, how wonderful he thoughtI was and please would I see him again? I woke up the next morning and thought what a lucky escape I'd had and was so very pleased with my little self for recognising red flags and knocking this on the head.
Oh dear....fast forward a week. He kept trying to get my attention re his profile and eventually sent me a message saying how sad he was that it had turned out this way, how very much he wished I'd believe this was a complete coincidence and if I gave him another shot he would prove he was not that sort of bloke. I caved!
We have been constantly in touch re phone and text and I met him for a second date on Sunday, we spent the entire day together and had a fantastic time. He makes me laugh, we seem to have so damned much in common, he kissed me on occasion and I went completely weak at the knees AHHHHH, he has told me LOADS about his past, wants me to go to his house, seems to have nothing to hide, I've spoken to his housemate a few times on the phone....he's full on wooing me with a vengeance.
What am I doing? I'm way too keen, its like he's sweeping me off my feet....bad sign right? But what if....just what IF he really IS genuine, he seems to be when I talk to him, laughs about this boss scinario, I'm getting a bit too bowled over by him....way more than my ex P at this time into the relationship. I've never felt so in tune with someone, compatable, it's like I've known him for years. Oh god help, I keep wanting to knock this all on the head now in case he's another nutjob, he's sooooo opposite to my ex though, seems so genuine, NICE, doesnt have that alluring psycho stare my ex had, which I mistook for sex appeal. My head is in bits! Am I not ready? Is this why I'm having all these doubts? Could I really have got straight out of the fryingpan to fall straight into the fire. Is he a real possible Mr Right and if I let him go cos of my fears, will I possibly regret this for the rest of my life?
He knows all about what happened with my ex and is extremely supportive and compassionate....I have even told him I know all about serious personality disorders and will analise the pants off him and he seems so confident that he will pass every test I throw at him. Or am I just a challenge and is this all an amusing game he might want to play with me. I've had enough of mind games for this lifetime :(
Oh hell, I'm just hoping if I come back here and relay how this is all going you will all help me decide whether I should or shouldn't go ahead with this and can maybe analise him with me as this process develops. Unless you all tell me to run a mile, cos if you do....I damned well will. No more heartache please.
Desprathousewife
ten months out :) and a whole new set of problems :(
i just had time to read this...
Hey Despy, just wondering
Journey on...
Hi Journey
Marissa has a real good point
Journey on...
Asking you to lie about being
Thanks everyone
another red flag: avoiding
Good point Diedre
He's embarassed to be
BINGO! He's either effing
Deidre40
and...you admit ''serious
Only one thing stands
Diedre40
This could all work out
dhw
You have hit the nail on the head as usual Used :)
A few things concern me
Journey on...
Hey Journey :)
Good Answers... but....
Journey on...
You are gonna keep me grounded Journey...thanks LOL
I'm glad I can help, really.
Journey on...
Journey
You nailed it Journey
Goldie
Not a coincidence
"...He mentioned once or
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Ladydb
Too soon for issues