AM I A GLUTTON FOR PUNISHMENT?

Now here is a good question that is not related to THEIR behavior, I think its good to ask questions about ourselves, because trying to figure THEM out is a vicious circle.

I have never in my life doubted myself more after being exposed to a Psychopath and or Narc. Just another aftermath side effect you can add to this list they us with. We suffer from so much self-doubt, feelings of inadequacy, trust issues, some have had emotional sexual damage, job performance and focus issues, depression, anxiety, PTSD, the list is endless. Even after we have studied this personality disorder it doesnt give me much peace in knowing that we still are the ones that had to suffer and recover because of THEIR abnormality. Maybe they suffer daily, who knows, when you dont have a conscience they dont know or feel suffering as we know it. They are unable to suffer from emotions or love. They go from one victim to the next because they truly have no idea what it feels like to have something done to another human being like they inflict. We are left in shock and they proceed as if nothing happened, WHY DO WE HAVE TO PAY FOR THEIR DEFORMITY,??? and pay dearly, some of us near the brink of destruction, literally having to start over with our lives. They lock people up who are a threat to society for this very reason, they are unsafe to others. If I wanted to date a criminal I would have visited the local jail in my community because that is what they are essentially, thugs and criminals. All we can do is EXPOSE THEM for being sexual predators and get dragged down with them when they retaliate with all their lies and shift blaming. I guess people pay everyday for another persons crime, just as we did.