Is it really him?

Hello,

I'm new at this and I'd love support. I have spent my entire life worshipping one man. We were together in college and he dumped me. I was devastated and had bad marriages because no one measured up to him. We reconnected years later and I thought it was a dream. We lived together. He would not marry me because he would never answer to a judge again. We traveled and I had never been happier. On the day my father died, he told me he was not happy or getting anything out of the relationship. I spent the next 6 months doing everything to please him and nothing worked. Finally, he told me he was changing the locks and didn't want me back. I suggested therapy. He said that won't work because I'll never change. Never heard from him or saw him again. My grown children picked up my stuff and he was very charming to them and said it just didn't work. Found out later he was with a new woman right away. I think about him every day, compare others to him and miss him.