Duped one FINAL time

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#1 Aug 2 - 9AM
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Duped one FINAL time

My ex- boyfriend is a Narcissist. Why else would I be here. I was with him since I was 29 years old( I am now 48) He was sixteen years my senior. Over the years there were good times, but the most frustrating thing was his inappropriate friendships with past girlfriends. I was a fling that he somehow could not let go of. I thought he loved me ... until a mutual friend told me he was engaged to an old girlfriend he saw again.
I was angry that he felt it was that simple . He could just discard me and live happily ever after. I wrote a letter and attempted to notify the fiancee. Not only didn't she want to know, he gave her my telephone number so that she could curse me out. I dropped one last bombshell on her. HE NEVER BROKE UP WITH ME!.
One month went by and he was full of remorse and wanted me to come back . I foolishly did.

We stayed together for thirteen years after that. He broke up with her and I thought it was just us. I left him after he flew into a Narcissistic rage about something trivial and I feared for my safety. For the next three years he worked voraciously to get me back. In the last year and I half I started to believe I could trust him again. Except for his frequent unavailability on the weekends. We had gone away and he was apologetic about his infidelities of the past.

Fast forward to July. An unexpected cancer diagnosis left him MIA. When I was finally able to reach him he sounded like he was giving me a deathbed confession. He said I was right that he didn't treat women well.He was hospitalized and I didn't know where. When I finally found him and visited him, I discovered that he has been in a relationship with another woman for the past fifteen years. He made this woman his proxy and would introduce her to his family as his "wife".

I could not believe that he was able to support that lie for so many years. We were in therapy in order to get him to commit to spending weekends and consecutive days with me. All he had to do was tell me he was involved and I would have disappeared. I just can't understand why he pursued me for those last three years knowing he was with her. Why couldn't she have been enough for him given that he gave her the phony wifey position?

The worst part is he's dying and I feel conflicted about not wanting to see him ever again.

Aug 13 - 1AM
book2
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As each day passes, I feel

Aug 13 - 1PM (Reply to #6)
Goldie
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Spot on, your silence speaks volumns!!!!

Aug 7 - 8PM
allstar
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It could be you dying

Aug 6 - 9AM
omgalso
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About Good-bye

Aug 4 - 10PM
Deidre99
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It's not so much about him,

Aug 3 - 1PM
Lookforward
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There's quite a lot on the