Alicat's story
Alicat's story
My ex left about 3 weeks ago. We have been dating for 2 years. We met at a time when we were both going through divorces. I should have known he was not very stable! We went full force from day 1! I was still weak from my divorce. He was still in denial about his. He started yelling at me for little things and was often mean from about 2 weeks after we met. He had alcohol and prescription drug problems but I held on to the good times, and thought I could "save him" I knew there was a good person in there somewhere! Or so I thought! We continued our journey, he went to rehab and we moved in together when he got out. I bought a house and a new car. He landed a very low paying job but helped with all the bills. He lied from day 1 as well. When I thought he was working he was just driving around all day doing who knows what. He lied to everyone. I still put up with it. it was like an addiction and I hoped things would eventually change. I have 3 boys and he has 1. They grew very close. Things seemed to get better then something else would happen. He would blow up at me for no reason and made it seem like it was my fault. I was the crazy one. I drove him to all his anger and abuse. He got physical with me a few times and I often had bruises. Why didn't I leave then? It's crazy to me! He left the night my parents took all of us on a lavish trip! He said he couldn't take it anymore! He left me feeling like I did horrible things to him. He would text me ugly hurtful things and said I deserved it for all the hell I put him through. Really? He might as well have stabbed me in the heart!!!! I gave my all to him and the relationship! Now he ignores me! I am trying to stay strong and have been following the no contact rule. I truly believe he has no empathy! I still miss him at times why I don't know! I just wish it would all go away!!!
Well.. I guess I'll say it
Alicat, sweetheart,
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Thank you so much for the