Ahhhhhhhhh......day of freedom

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#1 Aug 19 - 9AM
happydaysahead
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Ahhhhhhhhh......day of freedom

Just appreciating my day (all MY days from here on out) of freedom from the N.
--if I don't want to put makeup on, I don't have to
--I can wear my hair pulled up
--I can do WHATEVER I want to do
--NO MORE walking on eggshells
--I can take a nap if I want
--we can eat fast food
--I can go shopping (or whatever) and not have to justify my whereabouts
--I DO NOT have to turn myself upside down and inside out to make sure the N is happy
--I can sit in front of the computer all day, if I want to
--me and my son can just BREATHE and not worry about pissing off the N

Just a few things I am appreciating today !! I can be MYSELF and I DO NOT have to answer to anyone anymore. It is a great feeling. I can say what I want, do what I want and be who I wanna be without fearing that I might be doing something wrong. And even if I am, who the hell cares !! IT'S MY LIFE !! I'm not perfect, but I deserve to be happy and so do all of you !! SMILE today girls (and guys) !! We are gonna be ok !! :)

Aug 20 - 8PM
Susan32
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Finding contentment

What I don't have to worry about- 1)A man who insults my friends and family 2)His fake vegetarianism 3)The constant critiques of my food&the portions, and commands to "Eat your food" 4)The sad looks whenever I wore a dress 5)The CONTROL he had in phone conversations-how they ended, how HE was supposed to end it, not me-his "don't hang up on me!" 6)Not having to conceal my happiness or sadness 7)Not being afraid of being accomplished 8)His condemnations of chocolate and coffee-um, I REALLY enjoy BOTH of those now (well, I have for awhile) 9)Really being accomplished in writing, without his flattery Much to be thankful for!
Aug 20 - 9AM
Playedwithfire
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excellent!

I raise up my coffee cup to you!lol I too can sleep without fear and no more snoring to keep me up and no more midnight texts saying "im hurt". Well done everyone who can relate : ) Playedwithfire

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Aug 19 - 10AM
janine
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free at last

Lovely! Thank you. Perfect time to read this when I had to see my ex one last time yesterday because of a funeral. You can imagine what sort of day I had and how I'm feeling today. Reading this cheered me up. Bless you.
Aug 19 - 10AM
betty2020
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I love this positive

I love this positive affirmation and reinforcement today!!!! xoxo only one way to go...Forward (tm?)

only one way to go...Forward (tm?)

Aug 19 - 10AM
NinjaGirl
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WOW does your post ring true

WOW does your post ring true to me! The part about feeling like you can breathe now is exactly what I was about to write, but saw that you already covered it. ;)
Aug 19 - 9AM
sarahb
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Yay!

Isn't that a great feeling? I remember writing in my journal, "Free at last, Free at last, thank the Lord, I'm free at last." (No offense meant to the original meaning of the great Martin Luther King Jr's statement.) I heard a song on the radio today and it made me think of all of us on this board - women who have been "jumping through hoops" - I even used to envision my Narc holding burning hoops - everything I did that he wanted, he just raised the hoops higher, or changed the game, so I could never win it. Anyway, here are the lyrics to the song. There can never be a more beautiful you! Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine Says she wants to look that way But her hair isn't straight, her body isn't fake And she's always felt overweight Well, little girl fourteen I wish that you could see That beauty is within your heart And you were made with such care, your skin, your body and your hair Are perfect just the way they are There could never be a more beautiful you Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do So there could never be a more beautiful you Little girl twenty one the things that you've already done Anything to get ahead And you say you've got a man but He's got another plan Only wants what you will do instead Well, little girl twenty one you never thought that this would come You starve yourself to play the part But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true And He'll treat you like the jewel you are There could never be a more beautiful you Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do So there could never be a more beautiful you, more beautiful you So turn around you're not too far To back away be who you are To change your path go another way It's not too late, you can be saved If you feel depressed with past regrets The shameful nights hope to forget Can disappear, they can all be washed away By the one who's strong, can right your wrongs Can rid your fears dry, all your tears And change the way you look at this big world He will take your dark distorted view And with His light, He will show you truth And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl That there could never be a more beautiful you Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do So there could never be a more beautiful you There could never be a more beautiful you
Aug 20 - 10PM (Reply to #2)
almostlydia
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It's funny I was just

It's funny I was just thinking today how I didn't even care that I had all my working clothes on cleaning out the garage and a thousand other filthy jobs necessary to get the house up for sale. This is me. And I don't want to be anyone else. Because, damn, I'm a freaking powerhouse of a woman. Thanks for the lyrics. I almost want to send them to my 18 yr old daughter who has just moved out and started her own adventure. almostlydia

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