7 days NC but struggling

I am 7 day NC and because of a really rough day I want to have contact via FB. I know that seeing pictures of him and the new wife will make me feel worse because now he is married with status and money and they can travel and do what they want. That is what my lame side of my brain is telling me. The working side is telling me that he started dating me while he was living with her even though he lied about it to me and told me he was available. He called me 14 days after he married her and tried to make me believe that he was still single and going to marry me. The working side of my brain saids that as educated as she is (nurse practicioner) and as much money as she makes, he still does not love her because he does not have the ability to love. I think what I want to see on her fb page is a message that reads 'WTF have I gotten myself into?" All I see is pictures of him and her and their wonderful new life together. Maybe he will be different or is different with her? A little sad and confused.