3 months out and this is where I am

Just want to share this, esp for those who just begin NC. This is my pace. I think everyone is different but it does get better.

3 months ago I split with narc. My whole world crumbled. I was in extreme pain, emotionally very hurt. This forum has helped alot as I have no therapist to help or any friends who could understand why the need to do NC.

After 3 months, I am feeling peace. No desire to contact the narc. If he announce he is getting married or have baby with OW, I wont go crazy as I have truly accept the fact that I dont want to be part of his life. He is free to do what he wants. Chanting prayers for him continues till the day i dont feel the need to do so anymore. I still miss the pretend guy tho. Forgiveness for the narc and myself not complete yet am still working on this one. Dating i am not ready. Life goes on. It is not too bad. Normal feelings returns by abit. Extreme anger and pain goes off alot.

Dear friends it does get better. Stay NC. Let the past be the past. Let him go.

Sumiko