3 months NC! And.... A package- I blew it! I text him "STOP, just STOP!"

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#1 Aug 15 - 11AM
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3 months NC! And.... A package- I blew it! I text him "STOP, just STOP!"

I received a package from the asshole which contained something I gave him years ago. When someone loves something of mine, I willingly give it to them. It's what my Italian relatives do and it's what I do too. When I gave it to him I said jokingly. "If we ever break up, I want that thing back…”

Well, it appeared in the mail with this note that goes somehting like this (no verbatim qoutes):

My sweet FreeMe.

You said you wanted this back in the event we were not together…

We are in this new place. Apart. I am taking life one day at a time. I hope you are finding your own peace. I hope one day you can accept me for who I am (and who I am not). Let’s recognize we are both on a journey and try to appreciate and accept where each of us are on our respective paths.

I love you-
xN

WTF? He writes as if he's some f'ing evolved person... "We are both on a journey..." MY BLOOD WAS BOILING....
I have been reeling since the call with our mutual friend who shared the N's most current dating status. Another discarded, another new supply. Rinse,repeat.

At first, when I opened the box, I just laughed. His mental manipulation and intentional attempts to flatten my heart are so predictable. I woke up this morning feeling furious!!!!
I was tired and did not have a filter. I text the bastard this morning.... Darn it!!! Darn it! Darn it!

My message...
"STOP.JUST STOP."

I just undid 3 months of pain, anguish, struggling, silence, growth, power, self acceptance, for what?
Three little words that let the mother f'er know he got to me...

Feeling defeated.

Joining Goldie's support group TODAY!

This will pass... Staying on my path forward.

FreeMe :(

Aug 16 - 10AM
TruthbeginsToday
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FreeMe... take a look at his tactic and use it in your recovery.

Aug 16 - 11AM (Reply to #18)
FreeMe
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Dear Truth... Yes, my weakspot is well known...

Aug 16 - 1PM (Reply to #19)
TruthbeginsToday
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FreeMe.. I see some really good things in this reply

Aug 15 - 5PM
boubou29
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I agree with everyone here.

Aug 15 - 5PM (Reply to #16)
FreeMe
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boubou29 - His number is memorized...

Aug 15 - 5PM (Reply to #15)
Janie53
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boubou

Aug 15 - 2PM
Done sourcing
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FreeMe, You are already free

Aug 15 - 5PM (Reply to #13)
FreeMe
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Agree ds

Aug 15 - 1PM
Janie53
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FreeMe

Aug 15 - 5PM (Reply to #9)
FreeMe
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Janie... The package wasn't marked for him

Aug 16 - 9AM (Reply to #10)
Janie53
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FreeMe

Aug 16 - 9AM (Reply to #11)
FreeMe
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Janie- you're right... It's the thing he does

Aug 15 - 1PM
fefe65
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FreeMe

Aug 15 - 1PM
Clark
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It's okay

Aug 15 - 5PM (Reply to #6)
FreeMe
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Hi Clark... You're a newbie... Welcome honey!

Aug 15 - 1PM (Reply to #5)
Goldie
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Right Clark

Aug 15 - 11AM
lessonlearned
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i don't view it that way...

Aug 15 - 12PM (Reply to #3)
FreeMe
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Thank you LessonLearned...

Aug 15 - 12PM (Reply to #2)
Trixy
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word