I have been doing so well so

why today am I down ? Tearful? Upset? Lonely? It has hit me and its unexpected
I miss him / I don't really because as low as I have felt since I removed him from my life I felt lower when he was in my life

I`m still shocked and stunned at how I can feel anything for him though I tell myself even though the man I loved didn't love me I LOVED HIM
with all my heart and soul. I think that's what makes it hard. It wasn't real.

I am sticking to no contact apart from having to deal with the legal side of it and my friends and family are being fantastic - I still think sometimes though
they don't understand the mental damage that has been done, that I am trying to work through.

Suppose I just have to feel what I feel and work through it x