Help....

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#1 Apr 13 - 10PM
BrokenBlonde
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Help....

Tonight I really want to email my ex N back and tell him never to contact me again at work -- earlier this week he sent me a congratulatory email on my new job and used my pet name. I'm furious with him for pretending nothing happened, how much he hurt me, and that things can still be ok with us.

He's moved on to the OW and he's off with her and I'm left alone to deal with what he did to me. I feel so all alone right now. I realize now that the problem is with him but I've spent the past 2 months thinking it was about me, about everything he told me, that I did everything wrong and led him to the OW.

Does this really get better? I read the posts my some of the veterans and can see that it does. But the truth is I'm scared. I'm 36, just spent the past 5 years with this guy, and I really want to get married and have a family. I feel like he's messed me up and that I may never get that now.

I'm so angry that he could just replace me and pretend everything is ok. It's not.

Apr 14 - 2PM
Journey
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BB, I want to be gentle with

Journey on...

Apr 14 - 9PM (Reply to #47)
BrokenBlonde
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Journey, I think you're right

Apr 15 - 1PM (Reply to #51)
Journey
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Hi BB, I'm glad you can see

Journey on...

Apr 15 - 7PM (Reply to #52)
BrokenBlonde
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Journey, thank you. I know I

Apr 15 - 8PM (Reply to #53)
Janie53
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BB

Apr 15 - 8PM (Reply to #54)
BrokenBlonde
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J- I don't doubt that

Apr 15 - 8PM (Reply to #55)
kimberly4398
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Broken I have been in denial

Apr 15 - 12PM (Reply to #49)
uncomfortablynumb
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I can totally relate to what

Apr 15 - 7PM (Reply to #50)
BrokenBlonde
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You're right -- why validate

Apr 15 - 1AM (Reply to #48)
tootsgee
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I too have this problem...

Apr 14 - 11AM
ruby01 (not verified)
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No words need to be spoken

Apr 14 - 3PM (Reply to #45)
Trainwreck56
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SILENCE IS GOLDEN GOLDEN

Apr 14 - 9AM
Trainwreck56
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Its gets better, I get pissed off too over the HOOVERING!

Apr 14 - 10AM (Reply to #11)
BrokenBlonde
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TW, I feel awful, I was so

Apr 14 - 3PM (Reply to #41)
Hunter
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You just lost round one..

Apr 14 - 9PM (Reply to #43)
BrokenBlonde
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I know, I still mad at myself

Apr 14 - 3PM (Reply to #42)
Trainwreck56
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They win when you break NC!!

Apr 14 - 2PM (Reply to #39)
prettypeeved
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I think I should say at this

Apr 14 - 9PM (Reply to #40)
BrokenBlonde
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I thought that was what I was

Apr 14 - 10AM (Reply to #13)
phantom adoration
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BB

Apr 14 - 10AM (Reply to #14)
BrokenBlonde
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I think the worst part is I

Apr 15 - 4PM (Reply to #37)
Deidre99
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So...imagine he is telling

Apr 15 - 7PM (Reply to #38)
BrokenBlonde
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D, you always know what to

Apr 14 - 10AM (Reply to #15)
Trainwreck56
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Takes awhile to wrap your head around what they do

Apr 14 - 11AM (Reply to #16)
BrokenBlonde
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Thanks TW, I keep struggling

Apr 14 - 4PM (Reply to #34)
mustmoveon
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Totally can feel your pain, BB

Apr 14 - 9PM (Reply to #35)
BrokenBlonde
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Mustmoveon, you nailed so

Apr 15 - 12AM (Reply to #36)
bgirl
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BB the OW is irrelevant. You

Apr 14 - 11AM (Reply to #17)
Trainwreck56
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I only gave him only 18 months, thank God! Cant Imagine 5 Yrs!

Apr 14 - 1PM (Reply to #18)
BrokenBlonde
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I think he's gone for good