Wonderbug's story

Were to begin......I met a man that treated me like no other at the begining....... always came over, had fun, laughed, hung out. Then after a few months,,, I wanted to meet some of his friends,,, family etc. He said No Way.
What we had was going to stay private, as he did not want questions about him and I by his family and friends.
Each time I would see him, there would be good days and bad days, and I kept wondering what I did to set him off. If he didn't text me or call me, I would wonder why.
It's a messed up relationship if you can call it that. Example,,,, he can text me anytime of the day or night. I can text him as well. But if he is in one of his moods, he will say do you feel like we need to text eachother all the time. I will say, that he inialized the majority of the text, and then he will look at his phone and say we had xxxx amt of calls over the past month..... And my comment is,,,, and the problem is ???
We have no problem in the bedroom what so ever,,,, but then he will make comments like,,,, he is getting to use to me and we need to spice it up, and because he knows me to well in bed,, that's not a good thing. Then he will say that he is embarresed of me because I am not thin. I ask him why he says such hurtful things to me and he says because he does not want to lie to me. Everything is always on his terms,,,, when he comes over, how long he will stay and visit etc. Usually I don't know if he is coming for sure or not because if we discuss getting together during the day, he will say he will get back to me. Well what I get out of this (I will get back to you) is,,,if anything better doesn't come up, then he will come over. You don't know how many days I have sat home on a Saturday or Sunday thinking he would want to come over and I would miss him coming over un-expected. (Ridiculas) on my part. In my mind I would think if he called and said can I come over and I said I was on the road, he would say ok, well I'll catch you another day and I didn't want to take that change. (Again) Stupid on my part. OK You ask- Why do I stay with him...... Because on the good days we are great together. We have so much fun together, and the sex is amazing. But if it's not a good day, I am depressed and sick to my stomach, wondering what I did, and why he isn't calling or texting me. Lately I have backed off, and I let him come to me. I have stopped texting him as much, because the pain is too over bearing for me. This has been going on for two years now and I still have not met anyone in his family or any of his friends. He has told me several if not multible times that he is looking for the perfect woman,,,, one who meets his template...... Good luck with that. It's really truely a shame that he is All About Himself and then some....because on so many levels we are great together.
To move a head..... one of my friends mentioned that this man sounds like he is a Narcisstic person,,,,, I was what does that mean.... My friend said that it means the person only cares about himself and has no regard for others. I started doing my research and came upon this site and found it most rewarding for my health. I just ordered the book, It's All About Him and I hope the book will help me move forward to surviving. I really truely love this man, but I know it will never change...... and the biggest hurdle for me to except is - IT'S NOTHING THAT I DID - PERIOD. His actions have nothing to do with me and he will treat any woman this way...... This is what I keep reminding myself. Well Thanks For Listening.