The Fear of Evil
The Fear of Evil
I have a question for all of you. The last year I was trying to extricate from my relationship from my disordered one, he was more demanding. It dawned on me that his requests to spend more time with me, take me on vacations, spend the night at his house, were twofold: To use me in between the targets he was honing in on to avoid being alone, and, to cause me severe emotional harm by faking love and then dumping me. I knew this. I said no to all those invitations. When the relationship was over, I felt badly about this. Had I gone maybe that would have changed things? I don't think so now. I think my body knew that something horrible was about to happen....
And this is where I'm going with this....the concept of evil, the feeling of absolute evil that is felt around them. I realized this becomes more apparent, this EVIL, as the mask slips. PRIOR to this, it is felt as ANXIETY around this person.
The last few nights I spent with him after we'd had sex and while spooning me he would be BERATING me, and then fall instantly to sleep, I felt intensive fear. Intense fear to the point of wanting to run. It filled the room. It was dark, it was cold and it was frightening.
How many of you have felt that? First anxiety then EVIL as the mask slipped?
Evil
It has been the same for me.
Horse Tears-- Vengeance
Yes, persuade and manipulate,
Before some of the ugliest
Sun, I had the same
freaked
Evil
Winter
Sunafterrain
Winter
Always anxious
Anxiety
JuliaMarie
Thank you for your sweet comments
Pushing you over the edge
The will to live
I was very afraid of my abuser.
Layla
Makes me angry all over again...........
Layla
I think we wiill completely let go........
Layla
EVIL
Evil
sunafterrain
Anxiety
lilly
I wonder
SUN!!!!