Cheated on by a female narc
Cheated on by a female narc
Last year I got cheated on by a female narc, formerly known as wife, now to be called the exwn, lol.
It hurt like a hot iron lanced into the gut. I was shamed, ashamed, humiliated, lost, betrayed, devastated, and dropped on my head. I was lied to, manipulated, threatened, objectified, abused, ignored, fooled, and crushed...then treated like last weeks garbage...
My masculinity was threatened. So was my sanity. I was in denial and avoidance, anger and fear...Cognitive dissonance??? I get it!
I wanted to fix it. I wanted it all to go away. I wanted to choke the mean out of her. I wanted to scream from the roof how unfair it all was. And nobody gave a shit, that is how alone and confused I felt March of 2010.
I knew she had a pathology, but never even investigated what it might be. I had given up on thinking it would ever be different, I just tried to make it as ok as possible.
Did I mention I had a child with her. That always had a huge impact on my ability to make a decision. I wouldhave been gone long before her d and d of me but for the child...but that is only mind fucking what if thinking on my part. Facts are plain, I was in for the long haul to keep the family together and give my kid the most normal upbringing I could.
Little did I know, or could I conceive, how having my kid in my own house half the time would be better and healthier and nicer than living the difficult co-existence with the exwn. Live and learn, hopefully learn, lol.
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