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July 18, 2011 - 6:18pm
greengirl91
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This sounds way too familiar

This sounds way too familiar to me, and I`m sure to so many of us. God, I still have the OW in my Fb friends, when I deleted, I deleted him, not her..After 1 month major hoovering, because I blocked him, now he`s back and forth to her. How do I know that? Because she has again songs, stuff, "underneath your clothes - shakira" , and I know to whom is this adressed to, I just know..because I adressed it to him too, long time ago. He`s such a coward bastard you know..things he said about her, of course hoovering me as lead character "Only you, after a search of fruitless searches" that including her. He doesn`t have the guts to fight for one woman, for a healthy relationship, so he screws us both in the head. Or who knows how many OW else. I wonder what BS would he tell her now, to get back to her. They really enjoy this, the drama, the fights!! Back and forth. Back and forth. He has his charm and he`s gifted and talented in what he does. But, he will always remain a bastard to me. Because that`s what his true nature is. Why hasn`t he thought of her, when he was hoovering and "crying baby please" to me? Yes, she was forgotten, of course. Those people are really disordered in the ehad. I don`t care how many millions they make. They hate women..
July 18, 2011 - 7:44pm (Reply to #42)
Susan32
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"This is REAL LIFE, not a GREEK TRAGEDY"

I remember telling the ex-Psych prof that. I know he relished the prospect of a fight between his live-in girlfriend and I;in fact, I whetted his appetite for it, KNOWING I WOULD NEVER FOLLOW THROUGH. I knew he was a gutless idiot, so I played him for all it was worth. It was PRICELESS to see the look of shell shock on his face as I praised her, practically worshipped her as some newborn goddess;I was raking him over the coals like a good slab of barbecued meat. The ex-P hoovered me, so I IGNORED him. "He doesn't have the guts to fight for one woman"-It's a WEAKNESS to take advantage of! Duh! Know your enemy! The ex-P wanted me to speak badly of her, to talk about how butch she was, to degrade her, to fight her for him. And I NEVER did it. Even when I broke NC. I have ALWAYS spoken well of her-it's my Iron Law. If I speak ill of her, it is NS, and I will NEVER grant him that. "They enjoy this, the drama, the fights"-Leo Tolstoy had Sofia Behrs&her sisters fighting over him during their weeklong courtship. Pablo Picasso had his mistresses&wives fighting over him. Spalding Gray liked the drama between his first wife&his pregnant mistress. That's what I found DEEPLY sick. I found it SICK that my own teacher would want me in some cat fight with his girlfriend (whom I liked right off the bat) I guess he knows that if he breaks NC with me, I'd leave him emotionally annihilated. Not wounded. Annihilated. Nobody in their right mind seeks out deep wounds to their egos. That's why we keep NC? He'd have to be a masochist to seek him out.
July 18, 2011 - 6:24pm (Reply to #41)
Sparrow
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greengirl91

Amen to that sista!
July 18, 2011 - 4:45pm
Susan32
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It gave me ammo AGAINST him!

Because I didn't look down on the ex-Psych prof's girlfriend. I NEVER said anything derogatory about her (my classmates took potshots at her as being a "dyke",I would have NONE OF IT) When I realized how MUCH he wanted a rivalry between me&his live-in girlfriend... he might as well have handed me the lash to whip him with like a toughened Roman soldier. I LAUGHED at him... saying how he would get turned on by seeing his girlfriend&I wrestling in the mud pits over him... and how I would WITHHOLD such a pleasure from him, to please MYSELF. I'd praise and praise and praise his girlfriend till the cows came home, his eyes would darken, he'd look bored&nauseous, and I kept it coming. Unrelenting. I could NOT hate the ex-P's girlfriend (now wife of the past decade) He can't paint me a crazy evil former student b*tch because I never insulted her to him. Instead, I practically worshipped the ground she walked on. Some assumed the ex-P&his wife wouldn't last... I've told my story on another forum&people would say "After what he did to you, all that deception, I doubt they're still together." I assumed they were. And THEY ARE. How I enjoy being right! I have kept the both of them in my prayers. You can't hate someone whom you bless. They can credit the fact they've stayed married a decade ON MY PRAYERS. I believe in the power of prayer.
July 18, 2011 - 12:41pm
bakingfortherapy
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OW

Sparrow, I know you are absolutely right. Our exN CHOSE their actions. THEY betrayed us. But it is very, very hard when the Narc pits you against the OW and plays games with your head and heart goes back and forth between you and OW. I think the Narc WANTS the feeling of two women fighting over him...Mine LOVED it...he spent a year behind my back seeing us both so much that I said he must have needed an excel spreadsheet to keep it all straight...lunch w/ her, happy hour w/ me, dinner w/ her overnight at my house, brunch w/her....and on and on... I think they want us to be enemies with her to deflect the blame from them... But ultimately THEY chose to lie, hurt, blame, betray us.. Thank you for the great post!!!!!
July 18, 2011 - 2:59pm (Reply to #34)
Sparrow
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baking.......you are welcome!

baking.......you are welcome! Agreed..... They get off on this drama! This is part of the illness! A loving , caring man would be beside himself if he hurt 1 woman, let alone 2......there lies the difference! THESE MEN ARE MENTAL!!!!!!!!!!! PERIOD!!! Good luck in your journey, stay focused!!!
July 18, 2011 - 4:47pm (Reply to #35)
Susan32
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So hurt the 1 man who pits two women against each other!

Hasn't anyone here seen "Diabolique", it's a French film noir about the wife&the mistress of an abusive schoolmaster&they plot to kill him? They team together. It's considered one of the best thrillers ever made. When I realized the ex-Psych prof wanted to pit me against the girlfriend who had moved all the way from LA to be with him. I set out to break him. Mentally.
July 19, 2011 - 5:38am (Reply to #36)
agnesmurphy17
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Gottcha!

Me, my N's first ex-wife & the woman who replaced me all got together for a little chat. The web of lies & deceits we uncovered when we compared & contrasted his "manufactured mythologies" about each of us & our relationships with him! Well, he found out somehow that we had all gotten together. Some people saw me & the woman who replaced me around town. And I told people that I had met the ex-wife (who lives in another country--mind you). This little menage-a-trois has upset the N to no end. Even wrote the ex-wife & phoned her to berate her! Eight years after she left him -- he still thinks he can control her. And I have had NO CONTACT with him since then. Any business has been very official concerning lingering divorce issues. None of the personal jabs about my cruel abandonment, his recovery, or overtures to be friends. He knows that I know WHAT he is. He knows he's busted on my front. Gottcha! So he doesn't waste his time any more trying to emotionally manipulate me with his lies. Why anybody would be angry with OW is beyond me? She's yet another victim. And a great source of information concerning the N's deceit (because they deceive even more than we can imagine). And, we all were OW -- even if we didn't know it. We have no idea the layer-upon-layer of deceit these men operate. I suppose we are angry at her because it is a sibling rivalry of sorts. Jealous of a sibling for the attention the sibling gets from mommy. Blame sibling because we cannot blame mommy. Somehow we cannot blame N for his actions because we love & need him.
July 29, 2011 - 12:07pm (Reply to #38)
Sunafterrain
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WOW!

Agnes that must have been SUCH a healing experience for you! I wish I'd had that same experience! there is something comforting with knowing he does the same stuff with every woman he is with. the lies and deceit are amazing. I only talked with one woman who was a potential target and boy was THAT informative and when he found out, he was PISSED at me for contacting her. He knew that I knew he was a liar. I think once we know that, and they understand that we know that, there IS NO going back for us OR them Thanks for sharing your story!
July 19, 2011 - 6:11am (Reply to #37)
Susan32
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I did some crazy-making of my own

What's interesting is that before the final D&D, I took a class... with the ex-Psych prof's ex-boyfriend. I was interested in the subject, turns out the professor had been the ex-P's boyfriend. The professor warned me against getting romantically/sexually involved with the ex-P... and I ended up not doing so. My mother has tried stirring up sibling rivalry between my sister&I (it hasn't worked) Once, when my sister expressed reservations about moving to a place back East, I validated her, and my mother claimed there was a "conspiracy" against her. Once I met the ex-P's girlfriend (who literally worked down the street from me at a museum), no, I didn't join up with her. I WANTED to warn her. But I knew about triangulation;I would've been written off as the Crazy Ex. So I didn't do it. She's been married to the ex-P for a decade. Maybe she was applauding his deceits;maybe she was hoodwinked like the rest of us. I don't know. As for the ex-P, I simply followed Sam Vaknin's "Abusing the Gullible Narcissist" as if it were Holy Writ. The ex-P brought out my emotionally sadistic side (and I wonder why he doesn't contact me?)... and it truly SCARED him. I'd be dealing narcissistic injuries with a smile on my face... and he was profoundly unnerved. With unintentional Narc injuries, he used to have the power to "punish" me for them. To berate&endlessly lecture me. To tears. To put me down. I started inflicting them knowingly. He also knew that as a victim, I was the one getting sympathy. That I could get away with whatever emotional havoc I could wreak on his psyche. I WANTED him feeling sucked dry&tossed aside. Since he wasn't my boyfriend/husband/lover/father of kids, I felt incredibly ENTITLED. The ex-P was always afraid he'd lose his sanity. I helped him lose it, like a virgin, touched for the very first time.
July 18, 2011 - 1:01pm (Reply to #33)
Hunter
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Bank

It's called triangulation! Google it!
July 18, 2011 - 11:35am
Gullable1
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Free the ow...

So much for not focusing on the ow. Every word devoted to the alleged ow strengthens and entrenches the premiss of a perfect relationship if it were not for another woman coming in and taking your man. As if to say the only bad part of the relationship is "man gone".....? This excuses the narc from all his faults and squarely places the blame on the OW.
July 18, 2011 - 11:46am (Reply to #30)
Sparrow
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Gullable1

Which statement is your post directed to? Not following your comment completely........
July 20, 2011 - 8:13pm (Reply to #31)
Gullable1
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Sparrow

Was commenting on the posts lashing out at the ow in general, there was an excellent message about not focusing on the ow. Seemingly wet the whistle for many comments regarding the ow. A dubious irony.
July 18, 2011 - 10:53am
peacelily76
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I feel sorry for her...

My ex was screaming that I was the love of his life as I walked out the door. Within three weeks he had reinvented himself as a writer (he's written one crap short story), set up several online dating profiles which took five years off his age and had hooked the next mark. I caught him messaging women on My Space and he had literally blanket emailed any women who was online saying, "Hi, really liked your profile..." What a fake! He doesn't care about lying. He literally has no conscience! Anyway, his OW... I actually emailed her last summer to warn her, to tell her he was a fake and his mask would soon slip and that he could become extremely aggressive. I got an email back which was a vicious attack. I expected it however. She told me to get a life, that I was psychotic and that they were happy, in love and wanted to start a family of their own. It is not wrong to say those words stung me to the core. However, she must have just discovered she was pregnant by a man she hardly knew, she was in a very precarious position, I was a threat as I'm a graduate, well read, more attractive than her, slimmer etc etc and she must have been bloody worried that my ex would leave her. The fact that I escaped and made sure my ex didn't know where I had gone stopped any chances of him stalking me (which he had done in the past). The reply which I will never send to her is... "Dear KB, I got a life the day I walked out from that lying scumbag. You two weren't in love with each other. You were in lust with each other which is a completely different thing. Your body was high on oxytocin and your new narc boyfriend was high on knowing he had just trapped a new mug. You won't be happy now you've had his baby and you've put on more weight. In fact I worry about you. Despite the vicious email you sent me last summer, I would always compare stories with you once you realise what a waste of space you have replicated the DNA of. You're stuck with Mr Windybags the rest of your life with his pasty legs and psycho leer whereas I never have to see his ugly face again. I'm the one who got the life honey." Hallelujah!
July 18, 2011 - 11:36am (Reply to #28)
StudentOfLife
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PeaceLily

Love your reply to OW!!
July 18, 2011 - 10:19am
SoaperGirl
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Good post & worthy comments, but here's my take on OW

I think they do matter...not quite in the same way as you refer to. My narc's OW is being used even worse than I was. Her feelings may be sincere, but I have no doubt my narc is just running another con game on her. She has money and property, and that's what he's after. The whole thing screams SCAM and con-artist at work! He's having to sell his house because with two mortgages, he can't afford to keep it...he's fast going broke. The OW is a Golden Goose ripe for the picking! She's the sucker being taken for a ride. Yes, I've been known to feel jealous of her, feeling that I couldn't compete leaving me feeling inferior..but as another poster said, "Gullible" I think, the OW is a blessing in disguise. The OW takes the abuse target off our backs, and we get the golden ticket to freedom and the opportunity to learn and develop a normal life. The OW I realize is no one for me to be jealous of. Once he's gotten all he wants, becomes bored, finds another OW, she'll be kicked to the curb too, broken-hearted, feeling inferior, jealous, yada, yada. Now, I mostly feel pity for her, and I also want to know, am curious what the OW experience is like for them. I'm not wanting to condemn or judge them, I'm just trying to understand what it's like for them.
July 18, 2011 - 5:27pm (Reply to #26)
Done sourcing
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what it's like for them

I would imagine they don't feel like the OW or OM, they feel the focus and attention and mirroring and are probably feeling special and loved and appreciated. I understand that and I know how nice that feels, and was jealous the the OM was getting the mask, it sure felt better than the d and d I was experiencing. In my case becasue we have a child together, I get updates from time to time. The OM became the main man, and he has gotten some d and d'ing of his own, but in true narc infested style, their true love and devotion to each other keeps winning out, and they have a relationship that has survived two divorces, three children adjusting to new lives, His x having had heart surgery, yada yada yada...the shit that happily ever after is made of, not. I really truly wish they would get married, he seems like a good Dad, and my kid could use some stability when with her Mom, and I'm not gonna volunteer for that job ever again...I've been asked a few times, and I fuck with it for a day or two and then run run run for the hills. I was mad at him, he had a part in breaking us up. But now after over a year it is just what it is, and I am moving towards just having my own life. Sometimes the exwn seems like a distant cloudy memory, new experiences, identifications, and awarenesses are filling in the spaces that I have uncovered and found darkness in. This is a process, that is what my therapist has reminded me of so often. I don't know what all the lessons are for me here on planet topsy-turvy, but I am handling this momentous change in my life face first, letting it all hang out. Exposing myself here on this forum, in therapy, in my writing, with my God, all make it more likely that I will survive without a black heart, with gratitude that I passed this test, and that I want to share love, not misery and pain. ds
July 18, 2011 - 10:21am (Reply to #24)
Sparrow
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Soapergirl

The OW experience is EXACTLY like it was for you........repetition compulsive disorder.....the narc repeats himself, almost always.......he uses almost the same exact script. He can't help it. IMAGINE NO MORE! LOL
July 18, 2011 - 10:43am (Reply to #25)
SoaperGirl
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I'm sure you're right Sparrow

Of the things he posted on his website about their "romance" such that it is, it's clear he went after her the same as he did me, used pretty much the same script, but what shocked me that many of the things he quoted her as saying, I'd said the exact same things like "You belong to me now!". hahaha. Talk about being delusional, that was me alright! Maybe that's why i can see her as a victim too, but it is obvious, she is a bigger fish for him to fry with owning a nice, expensive house, having a fat bank account, successful business. None of which I had! (when I emailed him about her, I called her "a poor soul" and had genuine pity for her, knowing he had hooked and reeled in a new naive, overly trusting victim which I know she is! http://soapergirl.blogspot.com/
July 18, 2011 - 10:00am
Lisa87
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good comment

My issue is not with OW, he had plenty of them but I was #1, he said they were just "friends" but they were all women he dated and kept around. I chose to not play that role as because I was #1 I was with him all of the time and lived with him for 3 months. It was slow D&D and I never knew what it was at the time. He never wanted to break up but I did 3x (yup got sucked back in twice). My issue is that he has realized he cannot be in a commited relationship and has "several" relationships where he is "sexually free and able to date or be with anyone he wants" and apparently these women are okay with this, where I was not, I wanted monogamous. That's what bothers me is that these women are getting all the good from him and none of the bad apparently because they aren't getting caught in his web of control and lying. I wish I knew if this is the absoulute truth or if he was just saying that to me as he wanted me to be in that tangled web knowing that he is dating others and I can too. Well, I have 2 kids and work full time and he is basically free to go anywhere, anytime, with anyone, has no ties to anything and has tons of money, 3 houses, 3 cars and not a care in the world. I miss my friend but he turned into a monster and I have to keep remembering that, once you get too close and the mask comes off that is the end. With these other women the mask can stay on apparently, but hopefully its just a matter of time. Hugs to all..........
July 21, 2011 - 12:08pm (Reply to #21)
TNR1
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Ummmmm...as someone who has

Ummmmm...as someone who has been the OW....believe me, the mask DOES come off...especially if these are girls that he has kept around for a long time. They probably don't necessarily know about each other, he may have them thinking that they are the only one, the only one who truly understands him. That is what happened with me. Mr. N convinced me that he was truly unhappy with his gf at the time...he used to tell me everything that was going wrong. Said I was his sanctuary. The point is...these women are victims too...whether they see it or not, accept it or not...the common factor is him and he does not change. Don't think that they are getting all the goods...they aren't. Whether they are aware of it or not...they are no better than a chair or a car or any other object.
July 27, 2011 - 12:58am (Reply to #22)
destiny (not verified)
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i agree with TNR1- I was told

i agree with TNR1- I was told I was the only one that understood him...we could be that safe place for eachother to escape all our problems. he ocassionally would tell me he was kicking the gf out (of which I would convince him not to) im sure that must have baffled him. the mask fell, and i remember the day that it did... and it has never been the same again. Now his gf can do no wrong... and suddenly i am the bad one. I caught him in a few lies about her... what I now view is him trying to manipulate me- make me feel bad...maybe even jealous. I can tell you it is not pretty from this side. it sucks. i dont care how she feels about me... as she clearly does not know the truth. and how that is I havent a clue since he is awake all hours on the phone or online. AND...she seems to think he is such a great guy. the OW does not get treated better....it is temporary!!! I nevr thought i would end up on these boards again...never thought he possibly could be a N... he seemed very kind and nice... when I was getting over the last N- I obsessed about the new OW... he jsut cut me off with no care...so it was so tough..but they are no longer together, it was short lived. and now that I know how it is to be OW... I wouldnt wish it on anyone...in someways it is way way worse... I found the mask stayed on longer...and I got sucked in.
July 18, 2011 - 10:41am (Reply to #17)
dabussard
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Lisa87

I could have written your post word for word... Oh my, that is my problem too. I wanted monogamous... He wanted to be sexually free... This is what screws with my head... Cause, I keep thinking that I was not enough for him... Sexually, emotionally, well in every aspect...
July 18, 2011 - 11:10am (Reply to #19)
Sparrow
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WE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH FOR

WE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH FOR THEM! NO ONE PERSON WILL BE! THIS IS THE POINT WE MUST ALWAYS, ALWAYS REMEMBER! It's hard to remember all the time, but we must try.......always. This is the truth, this is our truth..... We will all survive and come out the other end better, smarter women.......and the cycle begins with the OW's....all we can do, is be there for them on this forum. (not "them" meaning your narcs OW, ALL of them) Smiles
August 13, 2011 - 12:04pm (Reply to #20)
lillymarch
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Black Hole

They have black holes for hearts. We could work out whole lives trying to fill that empty space in them. It's just no capable. No human will ever be enough for them! I spent 20 years trying to make the ex-N 'happy'. It's just not possible. And in the process, I lost myself. Now, I don't even think about any other OW, I just don't care! I'm focusing on me. Don't get me wrong, I can fall into thinking about him and any OW that he may be getting supply from. But I quickly change my focus back to myself or my children. (I know, I'm so selfish! Hehe!) my co-dependency is such a factor in being with this man for so long. Most normal people would have not put up with what I did. (With what we all have put up with.)
July 18, 2011 - 10:52am (Reply to #18)
Lisa87
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Dabussard

Nope we were not enough for them, but neither are the others, thats why they are searching for something that doesn't exist to fill any empty void that will never be filled. No matter how much sex, with whom, how many partners, orgies, etc they will not be fulfilled. I was enough for him emotionally and sexually but just wanted the extra thrill now and then of having other partners (wanted me to swing or have threesomes or orgies with him). Then when I said no way, but then broke up with him, he was trying to hoover me back in by saying he was "free" and knew I didn't want that...but he will get sick of that in time (within 2 years he said) and then he wants to marry me because we have a connection that he has never had before. Talk about a mindf*&k, I'm supposed to wait for him and then he will one day wake up and decide he wants a committed monogamous relationship lol. He was married for 27 years and only divorced 1 (we were both newly separated while together). I always made that excuse, midlife crisis, kids grown, just getting divorced, he wants to be wild and free and has the right, but that at the expense of my mind, body and soul. Then I figured out he has NPD and explains his behavior 100%, what a godsend to know I'm not crazy or alone, his wife must have endured this and wish I could have talked to her.
July 18, 2011 - 10:06am (Reply to #16)
Sparrow
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These women require nothing

These women require nothing from him emotionally, which tells us what????? Exactly, they are narcs. They are only interested in what they can get from him. They are not interested in him or who he is as a person. They are interested in what he has to offer. Right now, he doesn't see this, or maybe he does and is taking from them as well. I CAN PROMISE YOU THIS..........that well will dry up real soon and people will be moving on. Whether it be him or these women......they will all move on. Need I remind you of Charlie Sheen and his Godesses......
July 18, 2011 - 9:59am
Sparrow
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TO USED........AND EVERYONE OF COURSE.......

Happy birthday Artist! Enjoy this day, you deserve it! I am glad you found my post to be helpful, that was exactly what it was meant to do. Everyone: I am not trying to discourage anyone from discussing the OW. She is a part of your pain, and that is very much understood and should be discussed, absolutely.......BUT, I am seeing many posts here where you are obsessing over "what the OW is doing with the narc" - "is the OW making him happier then I did" - "Is the OW changing him for the better, possibly healing him".........these THOUGHTS are all very damaging to your healing. The OW may have been the cause of your breakup, was for my marriage. So, she has to be acknowledged as part of your story..........she just doesn't have to be a "main character" is all. Let her be a prop.....or a "walk on" but as far as for your healing and getting over this pain, she is irrelevant. PERIOD........
July 18, 2011 - 10:07am (Reply to #9)
Used
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OK

I SUPPOSE THIS IS ABOUT MY EGO...I HAVENT EVER SAKED WILL HE BE HAPPY WITH HER AND SO ON COS I DON'T CARE...BUT MY ISSUE WITH HER WAS OUT OF THE BLUE 3YEARS DOWN THE LINE...SHE SEEKS ME OUT TO TELL ME...WHY?... THE OTHER THING IS THO MYEXNH AND I WERE DIVORCED,HE WANTED TO REMAIN FRIENDS, I SAID OK....I FOUND OUT LAST YEAR,FOR 11/12 OF THE YEARS WE WERE STILL FRIENDS HE WAS LIVING WITH A WOMEN...SO HERES THE THING, I NEVER MENTION HER AND THE REASON IS, IN ALL THE THAT TIME THEY HAVE BEEN TOGETHER. SHE NEVER CAME LOOKING FOR ME TO TELL ME OR RUB MY FACE IN IT.....SO YES I ADMIT IT...MY EGO TOOK A BATTERING...
July 18, 2011 - 1:23pm (Reply to #13)
Done sourcing
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Ego smashing is a wake up call from God

My ego took a big hit also. I felt hurt, i obsessed over what he had that I didn't.i had to figure it all out. I went through the it must be something wrong with me phase. I knew she was disordered but still went to the it must be me card, wow, how twisted and lost I had become! She and the OM (funny, OM, like the meditation) had their fun, then the drama and the d and d's from her to him, then more drama...finally I saw that he is just another guy, I'm sure in some ways better than me and in some ways not as good...it just doesn't matter. She does the push/pull (her words) with him, just like she did with me, and does with our child, and with anyone else foolish enough to hang around her for too long. She wanted to stay friends with me, and because of our child I thought that was a good idea. But I know know she can't be "friends" with anybody, cause that doesn't fill what is lacking in her. She needs an excuse, an object to blame, a punching bag, and she calls that a relationship. She is darkness, I am light, I vibrate, she roars and shreiks...blah blah blah. My ego took a hit, and that was needed. God is love, and my ego was about retribution and hurting back, in other words perpetuating the darkness and hatred and bitterness. When I look at her with love, compassion, and light, no darkness invades me anymore. I need say or do nothing anymore, just imagine bright light illuminating her darkness. What a cool trip this is, 16 plus months since the original d and d, 1 year since the move out, and almost 9 mos since the divorce. I ain't perfect, but God and people have and continue to give me all the answers I need to make it through each and every day and situation. ds
July 30, 2011 - 12:06pm (Reply to #14)
TovaBella
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Sorry for the late response

Wow! I really like what he had to say. So many of us have been hurt by N's. Something just has to change...it just has too. Love, TB
July 18, 2011 - 10:17am (Reply to #10)
Sparrow
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USED

Your ego took a battering, I am sorry for that. I am curious though why you hold a higher regard to the OW that came "clean" oppose to the OW that didn't........ You should speak about this topic more, instead of having your ego bruised. Don't take all the pain and punishment on, you should talk about it, release it...... As far as the OW, you never really know how much they really know, and you never know what their motive is too reaching out. narc #2's reached out......I am waiting on narc #1, she may, she may never..... But she/they will be victims just like us, unless they are narcs themselves........than who cares, let them all starve to death with a pot of stew and ladels tied to their arms.........
July 18, 2011 - 10:22am (Reply to #11)
Used
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GOOD QUESTION

Good question... i am going to have a good think about that...altho..coming clean about it...why after 3 years?..
July 18, 2011 - 10:24am (Reply to #12)
Sparrow
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Don't have the answer for the

Don't have the answer for the amount of time it took..........maybe it took her 3 years to get through her journey. There would be no way of me knowing. Only she can answer that........
July 18, 2011 - 9:53am
Gullable1
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Hell to the yeah?

My sentiments exactly, I've said since day one, who cares about ow.?.. Ow isn't what got us here, they are simply a manifestation of unhealthy symptoms. Or as I see it, the ow is a ticket to freedom. One the narc latches on, to the ow, we are slowly released from the clutches of addiction. The addictive fog lifts, we can all dust off and trudge forward hopefully happy, healthy, wealthy and wise.
July 18, 2011 - 9:43am
Lobo555
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Yep, I'm one of the OW

Yep, I'm one of the OW obsessed. :) I need to keep reading this stuff over and over. I keep going back to the notion that there must be something wrong with me for him to choose someone he only knew for 3 weeks over me. >.
July 29, 2011 - 12:26pm (Reply to #6)
Sunafterrain
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Changing thought patterns about the OW

A couple of things here, having been the OW myself in the past. 1. She isn't getting anything better. In fact, many narcs, once divorced, also dump the OW for another totally new supply (this happened to me). The lies are the same, whether ex wife, OW or NW. 2. Continuing to obsess about whether or not she is getting something you did not is EXACTLY what he wants you to THINK. Even if he's not thinking of you anymore, he would still WANT you to think that. It gives him power over you, even if he is long gone. 3. When obsessing over the OW, remember how he treated you in your relationship. All narcs have bottom line behaviors that are unchangeable, what were the behaviors of your Narc that were who he WAS? Do you really think he's just going to stop exhibiting those behaviors for someone else on a permanent basis? HIGHLY unlikely. I like to write down what he did TO ME. And as time is moving forward, much of what he did to me, and lied about, he did to his first, second wife, myself and now most assuredly his new wife. It takes a long time to change, even for healthy people, why would anyone assume that a Narc can in record time? He can't. He wont. If he didn't do it for you, he won't for anyone else either.
July 18, 2011 - 12:48pm (Reply to #5)
bakingfortherapy
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:(

Lobo, That has got to be awful...Just remember tis HIM and HIS choices. and He SUCKS!!!
July 18, 2011 - 9:42am
Hunter
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Sparrow / Artist

And That my friend is, enough said. So there, And Artist Happy Birthday! Hunter
July 18, 2011 - 9:40am
Used
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sparrow

I DISAGREE WITH THIS...WE ARE HERE TO BE ABLE TO COMMENT ON WHAT WE WANT...AND THE OW IS PART AND PARCEL OF THE WHOLE ISSUE...AND DEPENDING ON HOW WE CAME TO FIND OUT ABOUT OW...IS HOW WE ALL WILL DEAL WITH IT...WE KNOW IT IS THE NARCS AS WELL...BUT SOME WOMEN ARE AS BAD...EXN HAS GOT BACK WITH HIS EX FROM 9YEARS AGO...HER LIFE WILL HIM WAS HELL ON EARTH AND YET SHE HAS BECOME FRIENDS WITH HIM...THE MIND BOGGLES AND IF THERE WAS NOT WOMEN LIKE HER AND NARCS PRESENT OW...THERE WOULD BE NO NEED FOR FORUMS LIKE THIS.
July 18, 2011 - 9:36am
freaked
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This Helps

Dear Sparrow...you will never imagine HOW MUCH your post helped me just now.. it's my birthday..I am sitting alone and brooding...and came here for some healthy company..and your POST...wow...did GOD put this message here?????