I haven't been on and I'm in trouble
I haven't been on and I'm in trouble
Hi all,
I haven't been on in a week or so. My son and mom were pretty sick last week.
But... I saw my N this past weekend. He said things to me he has never said before. He told me he loved me for the first time in 2 years and he also showed me a ton of affection. He told me he has been doing a lot of soul searching and his family is not and has never been affectionate or loving and this has always been a problem he sees in all his relationships from the past.
I didn't feel overwhelmed with joy hearing this because I'm very much on my guard. I'm also worried of the very low place he can put me so easily and for me to fall for his loving words now scares the crap out of me. For 2 years he has told me that he doesn't love me and never will. Then, after this last break up he says he has had to do a lot of soul searching and realized he doesn't show any affection and isn't good at this and will try his hardest.
I'm scared and I know this is putting me back in. I'm trying to be so careful but he has never said the words that I longed for until this last weekend. I waited 2 years for that moment and it made me wonder and question things and scared.
Anyway, I am talking to him again and I did see him. I guess this puts me back in it but I'm trying to use my head more than my feelings.
Hugs
narcs
Once your eyes are opened . . .
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Yes, and it's so true! I
I am sorry to say but it is
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
This is how he likes it...
Ack...........
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
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"dont let yesterday take up too much of today"
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