Faithinthefuture story
Faithinthefuture story
I had no idea what a narcissist was until I ended a 10 yr on/off relationship w/one. I started searching for answers to how a compulsive liar & cheater thinks and as Oprah says I had my Aha Moment when it led me to narcissism and this web page.
I've been NC for 4 months...I'm slowly learning the abbreviations :-)
I confronted my exN w/cheating again!(while he was in his home state for a funeral) He of course denied it & said "I wasn't w/her"...I never mentioned any name. His response was I'm not happy here & that makes you unhappy. I told him to pack his shit & get the fuck out of my house.(He had moved here from his state to mine 7 mos earlier-600 miles difference).Whick he proceeded to do..the whole time sniffling.I wish sooo bad I would've called him on that! When his truck was loaded(I threw EVERYTHING he had ever given me on the bed for him to take...he told me I gave those things to you please keep them...told him I want NOTHING in my house from you!!) when the truck was packed he asked if he had everything I told him if I find anything I'll burn it. Parting words to him were...take your lieing cheating ass back to mommy & your so called friends who say you will never amount to anything you are dead to me.
For the next 3 days i drank A LOT of wine slept and cried my heart out cuz it was broke by him...again.
Then i got a call from a friend who had been told my the OW they had been together & she was a nasty icky skank & to go get tested. I did the next day. 2 days later I got the call I was positive for chlamydia. I called & told him & he was like "YOU HAVE CHLAMYDIA?!" You could hear in his voice the eewwwww. Awww yeah and you gave it to me.(I had not been w/anyone else except for him in over 4 yrs) He was supposed to have been tested yr b4 becuz he had been w/a different skank who I KNEW was nasty and b4 I would get back together w/him I told him he had to. I KNOW...I SHOULD'VE ASKED TO SEE THE RESULTS!!! But like a fool i trusted him...again.
I know my story is working backwards from the ending & not the beginning.
He is your typical N...Mr. Charmer in the beginning and then the yrs slowly started to show his true colors and has gotten worse.
I want nothing to do w/him. It is over! He makes me sick to my stomach. But I'm at a place where I need to hear I'm not alone & to be w/people who know how devastating it is to have had a relationship w/an N. It's not a normal grieving. Even for those who were strong independent women(sorry if any guys are on here)I'm hoping by coming to this website I will become that woman again.
Sometimes I feel I'm as addicted to this website as I was to him. Is that bad? I hope not.
Sorry this is sooo long & only have the story's been told. Overwhelms us doesn't it? It's like OMG WTF?!!!!!
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