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1st Day of Peace!!

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#1 May 31 - 7AM
BadaBing
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1st Day of Peace!!

Hope you all had a good weekend. I found a nice place to live. I broke it off with him via text. I get my key today! He texted and called most all the weekend, got drunk and sent a rude text and I turned off my phone.

Yesterday was the first day he didn't send any messages. I checked my phone I felt like I was forgetting something. I realize how tied up I have been in his communications. NC is hard! Although I have broken up I need to get used to the silence now. It feels like a void, but it won't when I am busy. I do the best during the work week or with a project.

I realize we all have to go through this pain. I feel weak to give him to him when he is soft, but I remember quickly that I would soon be thinking of him and her on my sofa and I can't pretend this is going to go away. The games our heart and mind play! After to move I will have to really work for NC and I hate to change my phone number but there is no way to block on my cell. (Why is that?!)

thanks for your advice over the weekend - it's quiet now :)

May 31 - 10AM
mystwoman
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Good for you. Yes, NC is

Good for you. Yes, NC is hard (particularly at first), but it is SO worth it. The "void" was hard for me at first, too. However, you'll soon find things that YOU choose in your life that will fill it. I, too, fought changing my phone number for a long time. It irked the snot out of me that I'd had this number for almost 20 years, and I had to change it because xnh was a jerk that wouldn't leave me alone. However, once I finally did it, it was actually a RELIEF. Every time the phone rang, I no longer cringed and felt anxiety about what I would do if xnh's number showed up on the caller ID or I picked up the phone and it was him. It's a wonderful feeling to now to know without a shadow of a doubt that, if I answer my own phone, it is NOT xnh. lol. Big hugs to you!

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May 31 - 8AM
Kiwi2005
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Badabing

Yay! Good for you! Congrats on Day 1... It's going to be hard, you may check your phone literally, a million times in one day--- but the longer you go, the easier it gets. I broke NC and as much as I want to regret it, I don't because I chose to do so, but now I'm starting over at Day 1 & it is not fun- it sucks- but I KNOW it's for the best. GOOD LUCK! Keep staying STRONG! What you're doing right now is the beginning of the rest of your life, with peace, drama-free, manipulation free, lies and cheating free! Stick with it!!!
May 31 - 7AM
Used
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badabing

you are one VERY STRONG COURAGOUS WOMEN, you have dealt with this with such strength and fortitude, and i truly take my hat off to you, and think what afucking mug narc was to lose you....your strength has inspired me today on what has turned out to be a SHITTY NARC DAY NUSIANCE....GOODLUCKXXX