10 months and I'm tired.
10 months and I'm tired.
My recovery process has been 3 or 4 steps forward, one step back it seems, which I guess is okay as long as the basic direction is forward . . .
But here's the struggle I'm having lately. Obsessive thoughts. WTF. Why, at 10 months out, does he (and NS) still take up head space?? Seriously. I'm so, so exhausted from fighting with my brain. I don't WANT him in my head. I don't want to think about her. And yet, they still show up. In my thoughts, in my dreams, when I'm triggered by a song or a memory or a place. And it's not just him. It's him AND her. A constant reminder that I was indeed replaced and just one of so, so many sources of supply in his lifetime.
I see my therapist once a week. I read here every day. I journal - sporadically, but still, I do write out what I'm feeling. I'm working on a magazine article about my story with an NPD. I cry when I feel the need - last night I had a good 20 or 30 minute sob session, in fact, just to release all these pent-up emotions.
What else can I do? How do I stop the obsessive thoughts? What's worked for those of you who are farther along? I'm ready for a lobotomy. ;)
-Juliette
I can only speak for my own
I'm numb too I think!
YES, THIS^^^^
Lovely words
Juliette
I'm almost 10 months NC
"My recovery process has been
Journey on...
11 months out
As long
Pumpkin
Unfortunately, this is
juliette
3 years?
juliette
Hey Juliette!
Hey Round3!
This is a Headfuck of the
Thanks Hunter . . .