10 days NC, have to return something to him...
10 days NC, have to return something to him...
am i looking for an excuse for contact?? i have something of his that's too heavy to send. was going to drop it in a box on his door step, no note. yes, part of me expects a tm or email as a result (i'm getting anxious and nauseated thinking about it). but then i go thru the CD thing (wouldn't it be great?? no, it wouldn't!! it would start all this craziness all over...he won't be nice, he'll be nasty, who knows?).
went away with my ex fiance for the last couple of days for his work conference and i found myself so sad about the N and all that's happened over the last 3 years. the hurt, the abuse, the weird sex, the insane reactions, the loneliness all still swirl through my head. it's only 10 days but it's so hard. all the negative things are so fresh but so are the excitement and happiness i had in seeing him.
anyone else want/dread the contact? should I just drop it off? wait a few weeks/months or get rid of it now? (i SO needed to be on this site and couldn't for a couple of days, talk about withdrawal!)
Get rid of it asap
Monica
It has been since the third week in March....
that's not long...
Marissa...feeling sorry for him was my downfall
Monica
Marissa
Get rid of it now, don't
Is it a matter of life or death?
stay~strong
If it was so important to him
Marissa
janine
Proceed with Caution
momoya
momoya
this could make things worse for you
stay~strong