It's so hard to accept that it wasn't real

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#1 July 14, 2017 - 3:16pm
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It's so hard to accept that it wasn't real


I spent 9 years of my life loving someone that I thought loved me too, I am still in denial that I was with a narcissist, but everything I read about it is exactly how he was. I am left feeling so alone, worthless and like loving him was for nothing. How can it even be possible that someone is impossible to feel and love the way we do. I am so devastated by all of this and I feel like I spent two years of my life with the back and forth roller coaster. It seems so easy for him while i cry and suffer daily. I am sure when they go silent that is when they are looking for their next victim. I feel a sting in my heart and stomach that this can be true. I feel foolish and so sick to my stomach that it was all lies to fill his endless needs. This is my first time online discussing this b/c i don't even know what else to do. I wanted to give up so to hear from people that are going through it too i am hopeful that this will help me. I am desperate for the pain to go away and I want someone that understand everything I feel to speak to.

Thank you so much, I truly appreciate it!


July 15, 2017 - 5:13pm
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July 15, 2017 - 8:39am
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Hard to accept