I am a rare breed

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#1 Apr 16 - 4AM
defeated
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I am a rare breed

I don't believe very many have had my experience with a narcissist. Frankly, I didn't even know what a narcissist was, or that my husband fit into that category until a few months ago. I have been married for almost "44" years and for almost that entire time my husband has been cheating on me. I have asked myself over and over again why I put up with it, why I let him keep coming back, what is wrong with me. I can not tell you how liberated I feel knowing that there is still hope for me. My grown children seem to think that since we've been together so long that we should just remain together because they are afraid of me being alone. What they don't understand is the pain and emptiness I feel inside when I am with this man. At 68 years old, he is still out there trying to get the attention of his young secretary. I always thought that I was not good enough, young enough, pretty enough, but even with I was young and pretty, he cheated on me. I have a very long way to go and I pray every day that God will give me the strength to get me through this divorce process. BTW, I have filed for divorce several times in the past, only to give him "another" chance, but now it is very clear that he doesn't love me and he will never change. Why I couldn't see that "44" years ago is beyond me. I told my children that as long as I am breathing, I'd rather be alone and be happy, than be with him and be miserable.

Apr 16 - 11AM
Goldie
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Great attitude

Apr 16 - 6PM (Reply to #11)
ItsFinallytime
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I may have to change mine to

Apr 16 - 7PM (Reply to #12)
Goldie
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It's available

Apr 16 - 5PM (Reply to #10)
CougarBabe7
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Name Change

Apr 16 - 10AM
janice m m
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Run

Apr 16 - 8AM
Willow
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Welcome to the Path Forward!

Apr 16 - 7AM
Hunter
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Welcome to Narrcville..I

Apr 16 - 6AM
aurora
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Welcome

Apr 16 - 6AM
Janie53
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Bravo!

Apr 16 - 2PM (Reply to #2)
defeated
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Thank all of you

Apr 16 - 4PM (Reply to #4)
Janie53
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No longer Defeated!

Apr 16 - 4PM (Reply to #3)
Goldie
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Outstanding