He came back, used me for sex, then discarded me

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#1 Mar 24 - 4PM
Char12
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He came back, used me for sex, then discarded me

As with many of these stories he treated me perfectly in the beginning and over time began telling me he needed space and becoming indifferent. It got worse after reading up I've realised that abusive techniques were used on me which I didn't realize at the time. I was always made out to be at fault if I confronted him and many times I'd be made to feel needy and even go back to apologise to him. Towards the end I was in a debilitating depression with no sympathy from him .. many times i'd be crying and he would completely ignore me. It eventually ended. However I came out of the relationship being made to feel like I was needy, crazy and controlling. I didn't realize he'd been making me feel like way.

A year of no contact later we get in touch and he asks to catch up after drinks. He kept texting like he was interested and I stupidly agreed, feeling more confident and that it would just be drinks. He'd just got back from holiday and on his way asked if he could stay on my couch so he wasn't getting a late train. When he arrived he also said he had no money for drinks.. we went back to mine.

He was the sweet guy I remembered in the beginning. He acted completely into me, told me he'd missed me and cuddled up to me.. he even brought me a bracelet. I thought he'd realized he'd made a mistake and wanted to show me he'd changed. I ended up having sex with him that night. He held me and kissed me all night and it meant the world after how much he devalued me the first time.

I made it clear to him I wanted more than sex. He said he did too and talked to me almost every night. He began to sound less interested and could barely see me.. he didn't have the time/money etc. When I told him I wanted to stop seeing him he'd convince me he was being truthful and I'd stay. After months he continued to devalue me, I told him I wanted more than just sex and he said he didn't want a relationship. I ended it over email and he never bothered replying.

Months later he still hasn't replied. I've been reading up on narcissism and it all seems to fit together. I feel humiliated and naive that I let this happen though. I feel so used and can't believe I let it happen again. I'm just venting but any support would be nice. Thanks.

Mar 29 - 8AM
onwithmylife
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Char

Mar 29 - 12AM
Done sourcing
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That's what they do! What are

Mar 28 - 9PM
Char12
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Can't stop blaming myself

Mar 29 - 9AM (Reply to #8)
talktothehand
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Char

Mar 28 - 9PM (Reply to #6)
K_S
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I just have to reply to this

Mar 28 - 10PM (Reply to #7)
Char12
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Sex is a huge thing to me and

Mar 25 - 2AM
Journey
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Hi Char, you thought you

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Mar 24 - 5PM
onwithmylife
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Char

Mar 24 - 5PM
lessonlearned
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this story is a lesson

Mar 24 - 4PM
AprilD
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Welcome Char!