8 Months later and still crying?

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#1 Oct 18 - 11AM
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8 Months later and still crying?

Ok, so it has been 8 months now since the D&D. I am better, I do NOT cry everyday, but I still get days when I cry hysterically! I have maintained NC for 4 months now. And I mean it! No FB, No texting, No calling, No driveby's, NOTHING! I am very good with it because I do NOT want to talk to him. I do NOT want to see him plastering pics of him and his NW all over FB. And since he NEVER attempts to contact me, I do not have to worry about hoovering.

So why after reading, reading, reading, meditating, exercising, writing, talking it out with friends, do I still CRY and think of HIM EVERY DAY? EVERY DAY I have to make an effort over a dozen times to CHANGE my thoughts AWAY from HIM. When does this stop? I want him out of my head 8 months ago. I know he is sick person who never loved me, is a Narc, is an actor, was cruel, a liar and a cheater, and WON"T be any better to her,(eventually).
Logic crap I have GOT it! When will my emotions catch up? When will my obsessive thoughts stop? This is the most INSANE thing I have ever experienced!

I am better, I do not cry every day, I can dismiss him from my head "most" of the time, ( although I have to do it dozens of times a day), and then those days when I can't I cry and cry. I NEED relief from him once and for all! WHEN!!!!!
(so tired of thoughts of him and crying)

Oct 29 - 6PM
butterfly1414
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It is insane

Oct 29 - 4PM
laxl
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You are doing great believe it or not!

Oct 26 - 2PM
neverlookback
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not uncommon

Oct 26 - 3PM (Reply to #31)
transcend
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Not uncommon

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Oct 26 - 11PM (Reply to #32)
neverlookback
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we fell

Oct 26 - 11AM
TNR1
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Focusing on the wrong goal....

Oct 26 - 7PM (Reply to #29)
Winter
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Yes, TNR

Oct 26 - 2PM (Reply to #26)
transcend
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Wrong goal

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Oct 27 - 7AM (Reply to #27)
TNR1
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I understand 8 months may not

Oct 29 - 5AM (Reply to #28)
jackguy
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You may well not be crying over ur ex

Oct 24 - 4AM
Janie53
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Abandonedandhurt

Oct 21 - 2AM
Winter
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Too much pressure on yourself

Oct 26 - 9AM (Reply to #23)
transcend
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Too much pressure

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Oct 21 - 3AM (Reply to #22)
Belle de jour
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This helps me too. Thank

Oct 19 - 1PM
CherryCola
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Hang in there, I know exactly

Oct 20 - 6PM (Reply to #18)
transcend
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Cherry

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Oct 23 - 4PM (Reply to #19)
CherryCola
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I know how much it hurts and

Nov 11 - 10AM (Reply to #20)
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CherryCola

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Oct 18 - 3PM
Walkingonsunshine
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I didn't cry for quite a

Oct 18 - 4PM (Reply to #12)
transcend
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why crying

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Oct 18 - 5PM (Reply to #13)
Walkingonsunshine
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So u miss the masked man. Yes

Oct 19 - 12PM (Reply to #14)
transcend
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Missing the masked man

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Oct 19 - 12PM (Reply to #15)
Deidre99
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why do you miss the fake him,

Oct 20 - 6PM (Reply to #16)
transcend
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Missing fake him

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Oct 18 - 2PM
onwithmylife
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It is

Oct 18 - 11AM
Belle de jour
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I'm almost 2 years out and 10

Oct 18 - 11AM
HelpMeHeal
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Unfortunately, I don't have an answer but ....

Oct 18 - 11AM (Reply to #8)
transcend
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No kidding!

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Oct 18 - 11AM (Reply to #3)
talktothehand
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I could have written this

Oct 18 - 11AM (Reply to #4)
transcend
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Oh Yeah

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