Story of vaknin

I remember I`ve read an article like a diary, when he was telling himself his story, and I was like "whoa, how honest for this guy to admit all of this" I remained shocked and kept reading on and on. He said and admited hurting peple on purpose, the Madonna-whore complex, the fantasy, jail time, and how he retreated now in a state of hermit like life, even sexually. And in the end, it was signed Sam Vaknin, God!! After reading the whole thing in bits and parts I understood he was the author. He said he also had black out of memory, like really not remembering things and stuff, and the trail of people that Narcs hurt, like totally being erased from their heads..so strange right? I would post the link to the articles, but I don`t know it right now.