The Airplane Ride

Do you love to travel but hate to fly? Me too…

Did you love a masked man now he's exposed, and you cant let go? Me too..

Many years ago I had a terrible fear of flying, If you know me I love new places, new adventures, getting there was such a stressful mind game.

My trip would be planned for months, Pairs, Hawaii, Rome etc. WOW how exciting, there's one problem. Getting there!!!

The damn airplane ride, its big, carries 100's of people,how is this thing going to fly???

Has the pilot had enough sleep, enough to eat and is sober? God I hope so.

Did the mechanics check to make sure everything is in working order? God I hope so..

Did security check the passengers properly?? God I really hope so…

Ok the day has arrived, Im packed and ready for the adventure .. Got to get there first. Lord! Anxiety, Anxiety, Anxiety..

Im in my seat,(front of the plane) said 12 Hail Mary's, 2 shots of Jack Daniels, OK Im ready.. Lets go..

Flight Attendants prepare for take off….. OH God.. OH God.. FLy..Fly … Oh God..

Ok we're up, at the 15 minute mark (I read somewhere ) we're safe… A few more Jacks, and 2 hours later ..Phew… I made it. Thank God I don't have to this again for a whole week. Let the party begin.

After many of these embarrassing flying moments I decided I needed to do something about this crazy irrational fear. 1000 of planes go up and down daily its very unlikely mine is the "the One" that is going down.

When things get out of control it's within my power to take my control back. I read books, talked to many pilots, flew more and more and told myself enjoy this time, part of the fun of vacation is the plane ride. it's the start of a new adventure.

Eventually ride after ride time and patience with my self I found inner peace to enjoy the ride. I was the only one that could fix this problem.

Now lets talk about the Narcissist I was in love with..This life experience is no different from that damn airplane ride.

I fell in love with a lie, a damn lie. When it started everything perfect I was flying high, treated like a queen,flying steady n the just stream then all of a sudden I felt a little turbulence, next crash and burn. I had fallen into a black hole of disappear.

Depression, anxiety, panic attacks.. What the hell is happening?? How could he do this to me? WHY? WHY? WHY?? Things are out of control

I need to fix this.. Its time to get my life back its time to enjoy the ride of life.

I picked myself up got all the help that was available, researched,read and took control of my life again. It wasn't easy but just like that airplane ride once you know what you're dealing with coping with the fear is possible.

Spread your wings and fly…

Hunter